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Fallen Angel




        Our own Western culture … has largely rejected the idea of evil spirits. Since the Age of Enlightenment 
       the Western scholar has sought to understand the world through verifiable, rationalistic and explainable 
       terms. There is no place for good or evil spirit beings in this ‘scientific’ era. While there is much good 
       that has come from the scientific method there is a large blind spot when it comes to the spiritual side of man.

       Phillips, Ron, Everyone’s Guide to Demons & Spiritual Warfare, Simple Powerful Tools for Outmaneuvering Satan in Your Daily
, Lake Mary, FL, Charisma Media/Charisma House Book Group, 2010, pg.37.


If you know the enemy and know yourself, you need not fear the result of a hundred battles.
If you know yourself but not the enemy, for every victory gained you will also suffer a defeat.
If you know neither the enemy nor yourself, you will succumb in every battle

            Phillips, Ron, Everyone’s Guide to Demons & Spiritual Warfare, Simple Powerful Tools for Outmaneuvering Satan in Your Daily Life, Lake Mary, FL, Charisma Media/Charisma House Book Group, 2010, pg.37.

When we realize that our true intelligence is from one spiritual source, we will come to see....and then experience....that we cannot be manipulated by faction 1 or faction 2, … We are all connected to the same loving, wise intelligence and anything which tries to convince us otherwise is only part of the illusion and has no ultimate power.…
Remember....."God hath not given us the spirit of fear but of power and of love and of a sound mind."


This is part of what we are up against, among other things.

Just because most of us cannot see them does not mean that they are not real.

Us sticking our heads in the sand will not make them go away.

Learning to know your enemy and how they work will help us all to defeat them.


Copyright 2011-2012
Awaken Joy/kfb/Save Our Spirits

Aug or Sept 2011

This is a picture of a physical manifestation of a fallen angel right in front of me. This is not a nice angel but I didn't know it until after I found out the truth about the masters of wisdom of the new age and the being who I thought was God. This guy was very, very angry at me once I found out the truth. I didn’t see him right away. I was working on this project and I felt this very, very angry energy. I looked up and right in front of where I was working, he was looking out at me from the fireplace. You can say all you want that it’s just the smoke and stuff but you had to be there. The upper part of his head and his eyes are clearly visible. The very dark black above the grate is his hair and below that are his eyes and forehead. Look close up and you will see what I mean. 

The camera went dead right after he realized that I had taken a picture.

In the fireplace so that it looks like smoke and such - of course this is where the face would appear so that it would create doubt.

You will either believe what you see - or not. So this photo was taken in a house with pyramid-shaped roofs, the building was aligned perfectly on a north/south/east/west axis and built of limestone materials, just like the pyramids, among other things.

Sorry Twilight fans - this vampire is real and he is every bit as charming and seductive as in the movies; however, the difference is that these guys are very real. It would be their influence seen in the making these movies so that they appeal to us and so that we have a desire for the dark side instead of seeing them as they truly are and how they are trying to enslave humanity. Oh, they would have you join them but you can and possibly WILL lose your souls over it. Please try to understand this part. I fell for it too but I found out the truth and got out.


If any of you think that he seems to look a lot like the vampires in Buffy the Vampire Slayer you are correct. (Now how do they know what they look like unless they have seen them?) Look at the forehead. Try not to get too romantic about vampires after all the movies. They are real. They are fallen angels. They will take your life eventually, even if not right away, because they are energy vampires. They usually don’t appear to you like this. They can appear as angels and beings of light and if you let them into your life while they say they love you and they are helping you they are all the time sucking the life and energy right out of you. They are parasites and they live off of your energy. They are very real. If you want to see more photos of angels and demons there are plenty on the internet. A fallen angel is not a demon but they are vampires.

Some people can see these beings in the other dimensions. Some can see them sometimes. Some can see them all the time. Some people can see well into the other dimensions. Some see dimly or darkly. Some see with the clear light of day.

I wonder how many people who call themselves "vampires" in this physical world really have any idea what they are actually dealing with or playing with in their lives. Some do I'm sure but I think most do not. For those of you out there who feel that you need to drink blood for energy, you can get energy in other ways. You can toss out the vampires and demons, close the "holes" in your energy field and be protected if you will but look for other ways and if you want out of the darkness. It will take effort though on your part but it can be done.

I feel lots more life energy in me than I have in a very long time but I didn't get it from the dark side. They were feeding off of my life force energy but I didn't know it.

Vampires or fallen angels can show love because they were born of love and that is what they will use to get into your life, later literally sucking your life energy for it is like blood to them. Remember how the witch in Hocus Pocus sucked the life energy of the child into herself after putting a spell on the child? That is what they are doing when you play with them. They have fallen so far into the lower dimensions that they need our life force to survive and they will use any means to trick you into giving it to them or sharing it with them and especially love.

Werewolves seem to be the opposites of vampires. They are energetically born of pure rage.  They do exist in other dimensions and they feed off of our rage and anger as well as their own. The red eyes come from rage and hate and living in the lowest parts of life cut off from love. How do I know about this you ask? It’s very simple. I found this out by  going into my own madness and my own rage. I did this by letting myself feel the rage and going energetically into the energy of rage. At one point I was so angry and so hurt and so full of rage because of some of the things that happened in my life that I felt the energy of the werewolf inside of me. I felt the animal part of me and I let it go for a bit and that is how I know that rage births werewolves. It is the energy of rage and the desire to tear apart the object of your rage and the ones that have hurt you. It is all the anger that one has held inside because there has been no healthy outlet or expression allowed of that anger. It’s that simple.

Perhaps that is why there is such conflict between the two species, werewolves and vampires, humans and fallen angels. Love and hate are opposed to each other. This is an age-old battle between humans and fallen angels. The fallen angels are the vampires and we as animal man are the angry and possibly rage-filled werewolves that they are trying to enslave. Do you understand this? Do you see that there are very many angry people in this world today and that as we lose our connections with our own hearts, our feelings, our Creator and others that we are sinking into the lower emotions of fear, rage and such instead of growing with love?

This is why God's love is so important as well as sharing our life with God - that is where our protection is to be found. It is always and ever only your choice as to where you want to be in relation to God.

If any of you desire or decide to go into your feelings energetically, please ask God and/or Christ for protection. These beings in the lower dimensions use our energies as "food" and they especially like anger, rage, abuse, fear and other "lower" emotions. Rage, intense fear, trauma and other things can open up our energy fields to them and to their influence and they can come into our lives through the "holes" in our energy field. So again, ask for protection while you do your energy work. Go inside and establish a connection with yourself, make your diet healthy and try to get your life in order physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually if you want to do so or make some changes.

I was tricked because I did not ask to closely of them about their appearance and who they were. I wanted love and attention and they appeared as wonderful, friendly, supportive beings - and they were - but it almost cost me my soul and my life. Be very careful.


What if the wooden stake that kills vampires is the cross or the stake on which Christ was/is crucified?

          What happens when we crucify our ego selves on the cross with Christ? Does it kill or destroy darkness?

  What else made out of wood do you think would kill or destroy the power of a fallen angel, aka vampire?

                                                                                                                    Any ideas?


What do you learn when you lose a battle?



I highly recommend that you read this article for more information about how our energies get stolen through entities stealing our energy, energy vampires, symbols, verses, music, places and our emotional states, among other things.

          When energy vampires find a creature with little or no psi-field protection, they penetrate the shield, 
        invade its spiritual structure and steal a portion of its life energy, the energetic potential generated by 
        the victim’s physical body. This hastens the exhaustion and deterioration of the victim’s physical body 
        and leads to premature death either violently or from natural causes. Energetic invasion of this kind can 
        be either intermittent or continuous.

These are the kinds of things we let into our life with false gods, Ouija boards, channeling, seances, psychic readings, unprotected energy work, invitation, spells, tarot cards, the seven deadly sins, drugs and alcohol, satanic practices, white and black magic and other means. Not that I did most of these things (some I did, but I was deceived by "angels of light" and I was studying the teachings of Alice Bailey, Elizabeth Clare Prophet, the ascended masters and others  at the time) but you get the idea. It doesn't take much to invite them into your life. You can also get rid of them.


Demons are different than fallen angels. To my knowledge demons [but who knows for sure] are the result of the union of the fallen angels and woman. When those children - Nephilim - died they became demons because God did not create them and they had no other place to go other than to the realm of their fathers, the fallen angels. Other energies without personalities seem to exist as globs of negative, dark, cold energy but most seem to be spirits, demons or fallen angels looking for a place to reside or hang out.

Aliens are connected to the fallen angels.

It seems as though there are angels and other beings that work with God and for the side of light and then there arre those that work for themselves and for darkness. Don't know all of the answers here. I do know that there are beneficial nature spirits as well.

This stuff is real. Very real. There is good and there is evil. I wish that I didn't know the difference but at least I can give fair warning to any who willl listen.

They DO NOT care about you or us. They never wanted to serve mankind and they are doing everything that they can to make us their slaves, keep us in fear and misery and under their control. We are fighting battles that most of us do not even know that we are fighting. People don't want to hear this information but for those that have seen the side of evil in a more detailed way some of what they are doing is much more apparent. Ask any pastor or priest about these things. I think many can tell you that this stuff is very, very real.

They do not want you to know that you are a child of God. They do not want you to be strong in your own heart and in your connection with yourself or with God because they would not be able to control you any longer. They want you physically, mentally and emotionally sick and afraid and depressed and on medication and unable to fight back or even care any longer about what is happening to you. They want you to believe that you need medication to be well and that something is wrong with you so that you become dependent upon them instead of yourselves and God.

God does not cause our suffering but those fallen angels and demons are surely responsible for much of it. Some things we choose and some we do not and many times it is very hard to understand why such suffering is allowed by someone who is supposed to love us. If God saved us all of the time we would be weak and in some kind of prison and who knows what else. I think that He allows us to see the world as it is perhaps and then follow our own hearts. If we make mistakes then we learn and we can share with others. I personally would not want someone telling me what to do all of the time. I would rebel and I did. I needed to make my own mistakes. Of course, I didn't like what some others did to me in this life since I had no control over them but I guess that it part of it whether we like it or not. I don't know how it all works. These are just some of my thoughts and how I resolved the issue of suffering in my mind. I do however, learn new things daily, and so I try not to judge others but instead, try to understand it all some days. Some days I don't even try to understand.
Maybe there is good and evil and maybe not. Maybe there are just choices. I might see these beings as evil because of their greed, selfishness, control and such but to them they are serving themselves and we might be evil to them. I guess it depends upon which side you are on. Anyways, there is much out there that we do not understand and so we do the best that we can. In my lessons learned, having seen both sides and having been fooled, I hope that others can learn from my suffering and the ashes of my life, as well as how I feel that I found life in this world. I may have lost my life in this world but I do feel that I have found it in other ways. For that, I am very grateful.
Thank God, literally, that there is something bigger than us out there to help us in this world. These beings and what they are doing is very real. We are not big enough, smart enough or strong enough to do defeat them alone and I, for one, really appreciate that God is real and that He was there to help me. This was one angry being and he was mad at me, only for finding out the truth. I do not hate them. I do not seek them out. I consider it all a lesson learned. It is their deceit and trickery that bothers me the most. If they were right in my face and true then I would have felt that I had made a proper choice but by being deceived, that takes any fairness out of the game. Maybe this is all part of it but I would tell you of my experiences so that you can be aware that these things do exist. Ultimately, I don't know how it all works and why but I'm very grateful that I was able to see both sides so that I could make my own choice as to where I wanted to be and with whom. I choose God. I have had enough of this place.

I think that if they would have left me alone to go on with my life and my choice then I would feel differently and possibly see these ascended masters and false gods as loving beings who were only trying to help us all out. The fact that they didn't let me go quietly and that they continue to come after me tells me that there must be some truth in what happened and some danger to them in what I am saying. Believe me when I tell you that they are not really very nice. The photo doesn't lie and that is only one experience.  Another version of this being looks like the mummy of Ramses. Before I found out the truth, he was quite handsome. I never had these experiences before I invited them into my life. I was already reading the Bailey books when I was attacked many years ago and the weird stuff that happened when we used the Ouija board when we were kids and didn't know.

Your choices are your own and entirely up to you where you want to be. I do feel that one should have all of the information though in order to make a fully informed decision, just like with medication. There shouldn't be any deception or trickery or greed or anything else that hides the truth. Put it all out in the open. I feel that they have to trick us otherwise we would never go with them willingly but perhaps it is seeing evil or the dark side that gives us some incentive to search for something different. I know that if everything were great here then I would never want to go Home. Everything would be okay. Seeing and experiencing the darkness has helped me to decide where I want to be. Where you go is up to you but know what you are up against is all that I am saying.

God protects us with His love and it is our relationship with Him and Christ that keeps us safe from harm. It is love that is the key to this relationship and all that you need. One does not need any knowledge or science to have God in their lives in a bigger way. He is real. He does exist but they would cut us off from Him in any way that they can and try to make us believe that He isn't real. You will find all of the love that you ever wanted with Him and it is available to each and every one of us along with guidance and support. You really cannot fight them alone but help is available if you ask.

What does your heart tell you?

Some might feel that there is no God and that science is all that there is. I personally feel that God is real and I like having his guidance and love in my life. You will have to make your own decision on this one and you will have to develop your own relationship with Him if you choose to do so. Nobody else can do this for you. 


The pharmaceutical companies and some doctors would have us believe that millions of us are missing some chemical in our brains. I don't believe it and especially now after all of the work that I have done over the better part of the last fifteen years. I was never missing any chemical in my brain. What I was missing was love, emotional support, skills and a connection with our Creator.

The darker side would love for you to forget that God exists or to put so much doubt in your mind that you forget about God. They put just enough deceit out there as to create separation and conflict in all of us to try to drive us towards one world, one religion, one brainwashed mass in their new world order. While all of this sounds wonderful it is really an attempt to stifle the individuality of souls and erase our connection with God all the while changing and watering down our holy books and Bibles, fostering ideas about aliens making us with dna mixing, ascended masters of immortality and lots and lots of science in this forgetting of God. I'm all for us helping one another in this world. I think it is what most of us want to do and what we are trying to do. It's just the way that some are trying to go about it and put the rule in too few hands. It's easier to control us if everything is all one instead of us keeping our individuality alive even as nations and persons. Notice how they don't even ask us anymore what we want and are now telling us what to do.

Try to take the above paragraph with a grain of salt please. It's my best effort to put into words what I feel about some things that are still confusing and I don't understand totally. I do feel though that God is firmly in charge and that He uses all of this for His purposes and that He makes everything work for our good. We are one and learning how to work together in this world it seems and it seems to be part of how it all works, us coming together and helping each other, but thankfully God can see the bigger picture. That's why I do my best to try to listen to Him and His guidance. Things go a lot smoother that way for me.

Maybe the reason that God wants us to stay away from psychic readings, channeling, ouija boards, tarot cards and other things is to protect us. He knows that we are curious but these rules are for our best interests. We do not think like these fallen angels and we are not out to hurt others, enslave or control others. Most of us just want love and we want peace and to be happy. We do not know anything about the other dimensions or the places where the fallen angels are from and so we can be easily misled by those who would lie to us and tell us part of the truth to get us hooked on what they are saying. They hook us with the truth and then we have invited them into our lives yet they do not show us who they really are. If you are working with any spiritual guides, masters or anyone, I suggest that you ask them who they really are. What have you got to lose? If they are on the up and up then you have lost nothing by confirming who they really are and what they are doing. Even they have rules that they must follow. They must show you who they are if you ask but you must want to know the truth as well. They have to tell you and I don't think that any of you will be confronted with anything that you cannot handle. I think that is one of the rules but that is only based upon my own experience.

I found some of this stuff out when I went looking for God. I wanted God to be more than just mere words or out there somewhere. That was no longer enough for me and enough for life. Life got too hard and mere words that He was there were no longer enough. Faith was no longer enough. I needed to be able to really feel His love. I never thought that He made me to need medication for the rest of my life. I thought if I could feel all the fear and the pain then I surely could feel God if He was love. I just kept looking outside of me instead of going inside and developing a personal relationship with God. I was so cut off from myself and from others and I didn't have much love in my life. I used a lot of science to help me find God and I did find Him eventually but I was tricked along the way because I wanted love. I didn't ask those spiritual guides and the being that I thought was God who they were. I don't think that I am the only one that was ever misled in their search. I think I knew something was wrong but I wanted love and support so badly that I didn't ask enough questions. It almost cost me my life and my soul.

All I had to do was love God and let Him into my life and let Him love me. It was hard for me to do this but I am grateful that I did. He really was there for me and in such a way that I never thought possible. He can do the same for you if that is what you want.

I am only trying to give you the information that I personally either know of or have experienced myself or that which expands upon what I have experienced. There is so, so, so...much that I do not know or pretend to know but I would share my experiences with you if anyone can benefit in any way. Some of these are the kinds of experiences that one cannot prove, much like being able to prove that God really does exist. Maybe we can prove it with photos or in other ways but the other dimensions are real.  My photos have not been retouched in any manner. They were taken with a digital camera and transferred to my computer. Much of what I have to say about these things and issues are based on what I have seen and experienced over the years. The only people that know about some of these things are those who have experienced it firsthand. I wouldn't recommend that anyone go there or try to find out if they are real or not just for fun. Seek out those people, such as priests and pastors, if you want to know if these experiences are similar in any way to some of their experiences. I feel that it is possible for us to be able to develop spiritually in our connection with our Creator. We may bump into these other beings in our explorations though and I think it is good to know that they are really out there. I don't think that we have to be afraid of them though. They are in actuality more afraid of our power in our connection with God than we are of them. Most of us just don't know that yet.

By the way...evil isn't the only kind of being that can make a face somewhere.....


                                                                            Now see who is using darkness for His own purposes....


This is one view (top photo)  of Christ that I saw - pretty much the same. Since I draw like a child and I don't think I could ever give you a direct representation of what I saw, I thought you should see it in a clear way and this is the closest to what I actually saw. God is even bigger than Christ but I didn't see HIm. I felt His presence.

This is how big they are compared to the god of this world who is Lucifer/Satan. Christ and Father are much, much bigger.

Keep reading if you want more information and where to start. Otherwise, stop here. The rest could be disturbing and discouraging to some.

Maybe we think God always has good days but this situation does not seem like an easy way out for Him. I think it distresses Him to see us all hurt but maybe he hopes that all of us will choose life. I think He even gets excited when we triumph over evil in our own lives. I have even seen rebellious spirits change their mind and ask for another chance, which God granted to them. I don't know all of the answers but I feel that Father deserves a thought in here somewhere. It makes all of the suffering easier to forgive, at least in my mind. All of us are given a chance to choose where our hearts will be and with whom. I look at the ashes of my life and feel sad and rightly so. Lots of what happened to me I did not choose but much of it I did. I felt like even love was taken away from me, so afraid had I become of it. At the same time, I found my way Home to Father and I cannot begin to describe how wonderful my spirit feels at this revelation and the joy that I find in feeling alive and sharing love with God. I am grateful now even to His rebellious son for helping me to choose where my treasure lies and to find my way. I forgive them both and find acceptance, love and an ability to move forward.

I was really tired of being weak and afraid. Very grateful for all those things in my life that have helped me get this far. I may have lost most of my life to pain, suffering and other happenings which were not my doing as well as to bad choices by me but all of it eventually resulted in me looking for a way home and finding something much more grand than I ever thought possible. I may have lost most of my life in this world but I feel I have gained it in another in the right here and now of loving while I am here in this world. Why wait until I die when I can enjoy this love now and live.

This is why I suggest that people learn how to have a personal relationship with their own spirits and with God in an open and direct manner. I find truth in going directly to God. I find honesty, strength, guidance and none of the confusion, fear, deceit or violence of this world. I find truth and love.


Let the disciple seize hold of the tail of the serpent of wisdom, and having with firmness grasped it, let him follow it into the deepest centre of the Hall of Wisdom. Let him not be betrayed into the trap set for him by the serpent of illusion, but let him shut his eyes to the colourful tracery upon its back, and his ears to the melody of its voice. Let him discern the jewel, set in the forehead of the serpent whose tail he holds, and by its radiance traverse the miry halls of maya (illusion).

                                                                                                                                                                                 Alice A. Bailey

Wisdom is the lie of the serpent. I see nothing wrong with wisdom but without God’s love this is a trap. Yeah, I seized that tail of the serpent when I thought their teachings were of God and it almost led me right into Hell. That capstone was inches away from sealing me in the tomb of the false god and sealing out the clear light of day and God because they had finally made their way into my heart chakra. Yes, they are capable of healing. They are capable of love. They are capable of appearing bright and beautiful. They are capable of many wondrous things and that is how they capture our attention. They give us truth but they pervert it just enough to lead us astray. You can make your own choices but I saw a side of them that many do not see and it was not a pretty side. See the picture of the fallen angel in this work. Does he look nice to you? I think that there are spells on the books and the writings because I never saw any references to Lucifer as a God. I think that for those who are not protected by God that these works are dangerous since those not protected are more easily influenced.

I think that there is a lot of truth in the new age teachings about how to develop the spiritual side of a person but I also think that there is much danger in there as well. I don't feel that we need those teachings to go Home. All we need to do is to turn to God, love Him, let Him love us and put Him first in our lives. Christ is the King and our High Priest.

Believe me when I tell you that I never had ANY intention of knowing this much information but it's too late now to turn back. I was only looking for a way Home. I eventually found that connection with God but I found out other things along the way as well. Lots of times I don't have a clue what I am doing but just doing the best that I can. That is why I trust in God so much. He knows the way and sees the bigger picture that I cannot see. I did however, find my connection with my own spirit as well as with Father. My eyes and my heart laugh again, I smile and I found life and love again. So, long journey around but I found what I was looking for. I wish for you the same. Please take heart and learn from my experiences.


I see and feel evil two different ways for the most part. Sometimes I see it, them or the energy. I can feel the presence of evil or dark energy. It can show up as an energy that feels dark, cold and heavy for the most part but sometimes, this energy definitely has a distinct personality or identity to its energy as well. I cannot see the energies well but I can feel them. Sometimes it is just intuition. Sometimes I get warnings in my dreams if I am asleep just before it gets to me. My heart also hurts when dark or evil things are around me. I do notice that they seem to come after me more when I am weak, tired or ill. I am constantly trying to increase my connection with God so that they cannot get to me. It works and it helps. Sometimes the energies showing up are a good test for me to see where I am still weak or fearful. Fear is their tool so I do my best to stand with in a space of love and connection with God for that is where I am protected. They seem to run from love, compassion, Jesus Christ and God but sometimes it seems that you have to stand up to them, or pray all night, whatever works for you in the situation. I just wing it sometimes.


See the following books also for more information:

Ingram, Chip, The Invisible War, What Every Believer Needs To Know About Satan, Demons and Spiritual Warfare, Grand Rapids, MI, Baker Books, 2006; and

Phillips, Ron, Everyone’s Guide to Demons & Spiritual Warfare, Simple Powerful Tools for Outmaneuvering Satan in Your Daily Life, Lake Mary, FL, Charisma Media/Charisma House Book Group, 201


If you think that demons are not  real or that possession cannot happen, watch the video below:        "The demonic documentary ghosts and spirits”  by WOLVOMAN80.


Satan is not simply trying to draw people to the dark side of a good versus evil conflict. Actually, he is trying to eradicate the gap between himself and God, between good and evil, altogether.3 Ray Yungen, A Time of Departing.


Satan is the god of this evil world (2nd Corinthians 4:4). As such, Satan needs a way to control it. This is accomplish [sic] through demon-possessed Luciferians, occultists and Satanists who carry out Satan's bidding. The Bible refers to these sinister people, their agendas, and their evil works in Ephesians 6:12 as, “spiritual wickedness in high places.”

It means that they possess those who wish to control or enslave others because of their desire for money, power, control, their lust, greed, selfishness and other traits. These people seek out the occult and demonic forces and fallen angels to increase their power, control and such. Many do not realize that they lose their own souls to the darkness eventually. You might have power for a time but you will probably be possessed by something much more evil that will take your life and your soul down with it. Research seems to show that Hitler was heavily involved in occult matters as well as being a member of an Illuminati family and look what happened.


"Lucifer comes to give us the final … Luciferic initiation … that many people now and in the days ahead, will be facing—for it is an initiation into the New Age. … No one will enter the New World Order unless he or she will make a pledge to worship Lucifer. No one will enter the New Age unless he will take a Luciferian initiation."

Quote by: David Spangler on the Board of Directors of Planetary Citizens, United Nations
Source: “Reflections on the Christ,” quoted in Unicorn in the Sanctuary, by Randy England, 1978


So you want the exact quote. You probably will not find it on a “hyperlink” because David Spangler published these words in his 1978 book, REFLECTIONS ON THE CHRIST. I am presently holding in my hand the third edition (Findhorn Press, Scotland) which was released in 1981, the same year I discovered Mr. Spangler’s er, uh, rather interesting and decidedly Luciferic theology. The book looks innocuous enough on the cover. One could probably carry it into Sunday School and not attract undue attention unless one were familiar with the provocative contents. Chapter IV, pages 32 through 45 are dedicated to ‘LUCIFER, CHRIST, AND GOD.’

” . . . Lucifer comes to give us the final gift of wholeness. If we accept it then he is free and we are free. That is the Luciferic initiation. It is one that many people now . . . will be facing, for it is an initiation in to the New Age . . .” 

This is because Mr. Spangler follows the Alice Bailey/Blavatsky/Theosophy/Freemasonry teachings which refer to Lucifer as god whether people realize it or not. They are taught differently and that it is about how that "Christ" is an office in heaven and not a person. They are taught at the lower levels that it is about overcoming Lucifer and not that he is god. Most are being deceived.

Another site with more info that Mr. Spangler was connected somehow to the UN. 

     I have found documented proof that David Spangler served on the Board of Directors at the United Nations as a "Planetary Citizen". 

    Here is the PDF document which references this:
    In the UN archives: Statements.PDF
Mirror in case document is removed:

(Page 39 to be more specific.)


Thanks for the help in trying to clear up where this quote came from and what Mr. Spangler said.  


Here is some more information:        “Hollywood’s Satanic Agenda’ by Glory2Yahweh.

    Kinda makes you wonder how much they actually know about these beings seeing as they present all kinds of true things in the movies and shows and such.

"KNOW YOUR ENEMY: Satan,The Fallen Angels & The Children of Disobedience *Full*" by NylaRossini.


Age of Deceit:Fallen Angels and the New World Order

A pretty good presentation of what is happening in the world today and why.
NEW WORLD ORDER WAKE UP CALL Full 2.6 hour dose of extreme WTFU juice” BY eternalblackproject.
“The Ancient World of Demons, Reptilians, Gods and the Djinn” by WOLVOMAN80. 
 “Angels and Demons Captured on Film” by elijahsfire.

         Demons cannot just enter people any time they want to. They need a legal opening to do so. [emphasis
        added] Knowledge of the things that open the door to demons will also give us the knowledge of how to 
        keep the door shut on them. It is also necessary in order to maintain our deliverance. What is the point of
        getting demons out, if they are only going to be let back in shortly

Those shadow things in the movie Ghost - those really exist. They live in the darkness and prey on vulnerable souls such as those addicted to drugs and alcohol. We weaken our energetic field of the body with the foods we eat, anger, rage, fear, lack of love, black magic, drug and alcohol addiction, loss of connection with God in our hearts and other similar things. They were able to get way too close to me one night because I was so weakened by the drugs, alcohol, stress and other factors. That was the night that I had to choose whether or not I wanted to die.

I don't know if they they can affect most people. You can't see them most of the time but they do exist on another dimension. I think you must let them into your life in some way. If you invite them into your life as many have done, either knowingly or unknowingly, with black magic, white magic and invitation they can hurt you, possess you and influence you. Drugs, legal and not, alcohol and other factors weaken us and can let them into our lives before they can get to you. Be very careful about where you are playing.


Here are some tidbits. Take them as you will.

“God is love, and those who abide in love abide in God.”

                                                                                 John 4:7-21


…the sun god RA.    That’s the Egyptian name for Lucifer.[1]

Is it just me or does that headdress on the sphinx look like a cobra's hood?

The snake is a symbol of the serpent.
The vulture is a symbol of death.
Both are used on the pharoah's crown.
It isn't about overcoming death and the serpent.
It is really about becoming one with them
by taking a bite out of the apple.

 Ra [Lucifer] is the god of this world, but he is not GOD.

__________________________________ . “John Todd on Satanic Symbols.”

Based upon my own personal experience, this statement is true. The Egyptians had ancient mystery schools including one in the Giza pyramid to teach their priests and priestesses. You can find this information in the Alice Bailey books, Elizabeth Clare Prophet books and others. RA and Lucifer are one in the same being. The great pyramid is indeed a tomb for the capstone will seal out the clear light of day and seal you inside the tomb of matter. You might get your immortality but it will be in hell. Be very careful in some of the New Age and ascended master teachings. Please go to God and/or Christ first without anyone or anything else in between.

                               “Let my people go [out of Egypt], so they may worship me."

                                                       -God, through Moses

                                    After the doings of the land of Egypt, wherein ye dwelt , shall ye not do : 
                                    and after the doings of the land of Canaan, whither I bring you, shall ye not do: 
                                    neither shall ye walk in their ordinances.

                                                                                                                    Leviticus 18:3 KJV
                                                                                                                    King James Version


“Woe to the rebellious children,” says the Lord, “Who take counsel, but not of Me, and who devise plans, but not of My Spirit, that they may add sin to sin; who walk to go down to Egypt, and have not asked My advice, to strengthen themselves in the strength of Pharaoh, and to trust in the shadow of Egypt! Therefore the strength of Pharaoh shall be your shame, and trust in the shadow of Egypt shall be your humiliation.” (Isaiah 30:1)

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                                    Wilson Pickett song - "Don't Let The Green Grass Fool Ya."

         I have entitled the book "Be wise as serpents, and as harmless as doves." This allusion to the story of the serpent 
         reminds us that the crafty serpent was a threat because Eve was naive. Wisdom is founded upon correct and significant
         knowledge. The serpent was wise, because he knew the issues at stake. Evil was out of Eve's frame of reference. She 
         didn't know she was being seduced. She thought she was getting an apple [empahsis added]

I feel that we have been deceived on many levels in our lives as well as being given lots of truth. It is very hard to tell truth from lies in some ways at this time and I think that is why so many of us are confused. There is a very good reason for our confusion. That is why I advise going directly to God and/or Jesus Christ. I think it is best if we go straight to the source now if we want to know the whole truth.

I agree so very much with the little girl, Paikea, in the movie Whale Rider. See her speech towards the end of the movie on the internet or watch the movie. Let's teach everyone to be leaders and strong in their own heart so we don't have to mess with all the other garbage anymore or with people trying to control or suppress us.

Then there is the statement that these Masters are said to be providing a 'focal point for the energy of the Lord of the World'. The only spiritual entity to be referred to in such a way in the Bible is the devil himself, whom Paul designates 'the god of this world' (2 Cor.4:4), and Jesus refers to as the 'ruler of this world' (Jn.12:31; 14:30; 16:11).[1]

According to the Alice Bailey books, most of which I have read personally,  Sanat Kumara is the lord of this world.  He appeared to me as god aka Ra aka Lucifer, Satan, the eternal youth, the Great Architect of Freemasonry and so on...I didn't know at the time who he really was. I thought it was God but I was looking outside of myself and not going through Christ, wanting as is human so many times, or thinking, that I had to do it all by myself and not ask for help. In the meantime, I saw a whole range of other beings that he used or appeared as in different cultures, time periods and such. Basically they were all the same but just wearing a different set of clothes. Mostly I saw and experienced the Egyptian mystery teachings, or part of them, since that is what was being talked about in some of the books that I was using.

In the Alice Bailey and other books, there is a whole hierarchy of beings below him but this is the black or dark hierarchy. There is even a office of the "Christ" but not going through Christ as our way to God the Father, but a separate Christ self. This is the deception as this will lead a person in the wrong direction and into rebellion and pride and away from obedience to God. Thinking I had to do it myself was what got me into trouble. Once I let Jesus Christ/Yeshua into my life then things changed for the better. Once I started listening to Him things changed and got easier. One of the books that I had refers to the "Black Sun" which is evil as well as to the black hierarchy of beings. I didn't even know this when I got the book. I could swear that those words were not in the book when I bought it because I never saw them until after I found out the truth. I think there are spells on them as John Todd says about the music.

So much of what I see and much of what I have read seems to have been watered down with lies and although there is much truth it has become very hard to tell where truth ends and deceit begins at times. I feel that we are so confused. These fallen angels seem to have come into all of our religions and given us much truth but deceit in each one as well, but just enough to confuse and separate us. Then they might want to give us the "solution" in a one world religion that will please anyone. Look at where things are going today and people search for God in this world. We search outside of ourselves instead of going within but nobody ever bothered to show us how to go within. We are thirsty for the truth and for God in our lives. Try to have a personal relationship with God and Christ, depending upon your beliefs.

One of the difficulties that I had with Catholicism was because of the way that Jesus was crucified. I noticed when I was little that the cross had the sign at the top that said “King of the Jews" but I never heard anything about it other than that one time. That was very confusing for me and it didn't make sense as I saw it. I didn’t feel that Catholicism answered my questions. If Jesus was Jewish then why did we believe so differently and why were our practices so different from those of the Jewish people? That is one of the biggest questions in my mind and one of the biggest reasons that I started looking at the other religions and other teachings for answers. I felt that something was being left out of the one that I was following. I had other questions and concerns as well. Things didn’t feel right.

I'm all for helping each other out but I am not one with everything like they say. I am not one with evil or those that serve only themselves. I am not one with demons and darkness. I am not one with the fallen angels and demons that steal the souls of children and adults, starve innocent people, start wars, kill our sons, control the economy, starve us spiritually and then tell us there is something wrong with us. I am not one with evil and that means the ones that have deceived us - the fallen angels and the demons.

Serve yourselves only and you align with the dark side. That's fine if that is your choice but just know that ahead of time and what that really means. It means death, destruction, fear, rage and a world of more pain and suffering. They promise you all wonderful things up front but it is not the truth. They hide the darkness and the pain from you until it is too late. The capstone of the pyramid and of the false god would have shut out the clear light of day and of God if I would have continued what I was doing. I was helped out by God. It took some time but God and Christ did help me get out. I didn't want to be in the dark. That is not where I thought I was headed.

I chose my side. I did not lose my life or my spirit when I chose God and His love. I found strength, support, love, guidance and friendship in my choice unlike the dark side where there is no trusting others and no real love ever because they only love to serve themselves in some way. They had to lie to me to get me to follow the teachings.

I say go directly to God now, through his son Yeshua/Jesus Christ as our priest. It isn't even about us anymore and our being separate or disagreeing with each other. This is a battle for all of our lives, our very souls even, and we have all been deceived by the fallen angels. 

Could I just point out here that these fallen angels are imitating Christ and nobody else. Why would they go to such effort to imitate the spirit of God and the son of God who came to save us if He were not the one they were afraid of and trying to overthrow? Think about it. Most of the entities that I have had experience with call Christ "Yeshua" and it is Him that they are afraid of, obey and retreat from.

I feel alive now. I no longer feel like there is a tug of war going on inside of me. I feel like me again but stronger as a result of my connection with Christ and Father.  So, not only did I learn that I needed to be as a child to go to Father but that I also needed to follow the example of His son in this world. I personally feel that Jesus did die for our sins but that reality does not excuse me from doing anything that I want in this world. I feel that Christ is the example of how we should live our lives and this naturally seems to come out of a connection and a relationship with Christ and God and not from religion necessarily.



According to Theosophists Helena Blavatsky and Alice Bailey, among others, Sanat Kumara [Ra] is the Lord (or god) of this world. He is also known as Lucifer. Please consider the following: Sanat could be --- Sanat, Santa ( this he showed to me on one occasion when I doubted that Santa was real and before I knew the truth about who he was/is) or Satan. He is also known as Ra, the Egyptian sun god and his uraeus (crown) has the snake and the vulture. One is a symbol of Satan and the devil and the other a symbol of death. He is the same god as Kulkulcan or Quetzalcoatl and they are two more of his various disguises or the way he appears, depending upon the culture, time in history and other factors. He resembles the statues on Easter Island. He is also known as Zeus as well as The Great Architect of Freemasonry.

He can appear as a being of light and show love.
He works with the “ascended masters.”


In the KJV Jesus identifies himself as the cornerstone. However, the NIV changes it to CAPSTONE. The capstone is the top of the pyramid – not the cornerstone in which the foundation is layed. In the New Age movement, the capstone – the Mercaba, the top of the pyramid, is the source where they channel Nimrod, the all seeing eye – into their third eye. The capstone is the symbol of Nimrod in many cults and in FreeMasonry which is thier [sic] god… a false god – satan. The NIV again trades places with Jesus and satan – albeit ever so subtly. - In Christ. 


See how subtle the changes are and they happen over long periods of  time in most instances so as to make them barely noticeable.  A CAPSTONE is not a CORNERSTONE. I did find at least one example of this change when I did a search on the internet.

Compare the different verses and different versions of the Bible for the use of "cornerstone" and "capstone" and see for yourself. Headstone is changed to capstone to top stone.

I liked the new age teachings and how I felt supported, loved and guided as well as the feeling that I could do good and help myself and humanity at the same time; however, I didn’t know the real origins and objectives of the teachings until recently. If you disagree with me please take a closer look at some of the information that I have given to you along with the information on the internet and then make a decision one way or another. I’m not asking you to believe differently but only to take a closer look at all of the information. It’s no different than taking a look at information and research to see if the drug companies are hiding destructive and harmful information from us, except in one major way – the price is our souls. If there is nothing to hide then everything is okay. If not, then as Ricky Ricardo says ”Lucy, you have some ’splainin to do.”

"The Illuminati' especially video #8,
Part 5 around  1:”48 -3:15

Here is some basic information about the masters in case they decide to make a public appearance. You can also go to the Alice Bailey books if you want more information and a detailed outline of their hierarchy. Their black hierarchy includes an "office of the Christ" and a "Master Jesus." I know that this is confusing and that is why so many are tricked. It sounds reasonable and many people just want to go home and help this world. Anyways, if all else fails and this is too much information, go to God and/or Christ first depending upon your beliefs.  Do not put anyone else first in your life - no masters, no guides, no angels, no gurus or anything or anyone else.

A diagram of the Luciferic hierarchy.

A better diagram here with a few others for reference as well as some references and explanations.          “Benjamin Crème, Maitreya, the Hierarchy of Ascended Masters and Lucifer.”      “Masters of Wisdom. Who Are They?”

The Journal of the American Medical Association published the definitive study on the impact of TV violence. It compared two nations or regions that were demographically and ethnically identical; only one variable is different: the presence of television. 'In every nation, region, or city with television, there is an immediate explosion of violence on the playground, and within 15 years there is a doubling of the murder rate.  "Why 15 years? That is how long it takes for the brutalization of a three-to five-year-old to reach the ‘prime crime age.[3]


If your kids KNOW that you love them, then they'll give you their heart….Parents are mostly to blame for 
not spending quality time with their teens. Listen parent, you ought to be best friends with your teen. A teenager who is loved by their parents won't have a need to identify with others who are in their same lonesome boat. If you don't make time for your kids, the Devil certainly will.[4]

        The Agenda: To create as much chaos and conflict as possible to generate negativity amongst our society. They 
        attempt to make us as they are. They feed off our negative emotions whether it’s passion, lust, greed, hate, envy or
        wrath. They wish to weaken our spirit to make it easier for them to take over. That is where they get their lifeblood 
        on our planet.



[2] Generation Rx [movie], Kevin P. Miller, Producer, 2008, 15:39 minutes.



it is worth remembering that Aldhous Huxley, the MK-Ultra operative who played a major role in introducing LSD to the public in order to create the rock counterculture of the 1960's wrote "Brave New World". . . . . The novel described how the global populace would be mind-controlled by ULTRA …to the possible numbers of chemical substances … available for the control of selective aspects of man's life in the year 2000." Happy New Year![1]



The Illuminati are the movers and shakers of the world. They are an elite group of bloodlines - I [Fritz Springmeier] call these tribes or families - there are 13 major bloodlines. They are what are called "generational satanists". That means that they have practised their secret witchcraft for many centuries and they have passed their religion down from one generation to the next. They lead double lives. They have one life that the world sees and then they have a hidden life that the world doesn't see.


Information about the effects of fluoride in the water.

               Independent scientific evidence …has shown that sodium fluoride [in our drinking water] shortens our life span, promotes various cancers and mental 
               disturbances, and most importantly, makes humans stupid, docile, and subservient, all in one neat little package. … increasing evidence that 
               aluminum in the brain is a causative factor in Alzheimer's Disease, and evidence points towards sodium fluoride's strong affinity to 'bond' with this
               dangerous aluminum … also it has the ability to 'trick' the blood-brain barrier… thus allowing this chemical access to brain tissue

             (See the above article.)

          Historically, most cases of fluoride poisoning have been caused by accidental ingestion of insecticides     
        containing inorganic fluoride,[181] Currently, most calls to poison control centers for possible fluoride 
        poisoning come from the ingestion of fluoride-containing toothpaste.[178] Malfunction of water fluoridation
        equipment has occurred several times,  including an Alaskan incident, which affected nearly 300 people and 
        killed one

Information about “Fluorine”


If you feel like you are following a carrot dangling on a stick in front of you, be very careful. 


Lucis [Lucifer] Trust puts out the book Externalization of the Hierarchy by Alice Bailey which spells out The Plan for the Satanists and New Agers on how the spiritual Hierarchy (actually the demonic hierarchy) is to externalize their rule of the planet. The book gives quite a few of the details of the plan, and is used as a textbook for New Agers at the Arcane Schools in NY, London, and Europe on how the New Age/One World Religion/One-World-Government will be brought in.[8]


Lucis is Lucifer.

These are different aspects of Lucis:

 A drawing of Lucifer by Rochelle Greene.

This is called "God and 666" showing one more aspect of Lucifer/Satan that I have seen but I'm not sure who painted it: Make no mistake about him. This is not a nice being we are dealing with in this world.    This is Christ and Satan arm-wrestling.

Here is another: Image Source Page:


Do you that follow the New Age really know where the teachings come from? I studied the Bailey books extensively and I was still misled by the teachings. They talk about overcoming Lucifer, helping the world, bringing peace and solace to all, but they never stop to tell you that you actually worship Lucifer. They tell you how to be a good disciple, how to better yourself and how to help "god" bring peace, how to ascend and all that but they never tell you that their god, Sanat Kumara, is actually Lucifer under many names. Sanat, Satan, Santa, eternal youth, RA, Zeus and many others. If you don't believe me, read the Alice Bailey books, Blavatsky books, Elizabeth Clare Prophet books and others. They didn't just let me go when I found out the truth. They came after me and it was only GOD that helped me and saved my life.

The ascended masters and the great white brotherhood are at the top of the Illuminati pyramid according to Fritz Springmeier and you can find this information on the internet if you don't believe me. I guess this is okay if you want to follow the Illuminati and Lucifer/Satan. If not, perhaps you should do a little researching on these guys and who they really are and where they came from. Sorry to break this to you like this but these are not nice beings. See the fallen angel for how they appeared to me after I found out the truth. This was a nice looking manifestation. There were others that were not so pretty and definitely not so nice. Not so nice and not so friendly and not so full of light and love.  We have no idea what we might be playing with out there. We don't think like them and it is easy for them to trick us.

 4. Goal of the Plan - Initiation: All who wish to enter the New Age 'on the physical plane' [alive]must undergo an 'energy activation' or 'rebirth' - usually marked by a subjective trance-induced 'light experience' where one meets either a 'spirit guide' or one's 'higher self' (no difference since 'all is one'). This 'altered state of consciousness' will eventually lead to a 'Luciferic initiation' into the 'new humanity', or a vow of allegiance to Lucifer as god. Those who cannot (no souls) or will not ('not sufficiently developed in their spiritual journey') will be sent on to their next life in a global 'cleansing action' (Alice Bailey, 'The Rays and the Initiations' pp.754-755)."[1]

      ,“The Rapture According to New Age Channelers.”



If you are doing energy work with spiritual guides and angels and such and your body "burns" at times, be very careful about who you are working with as this is the burning ground. It would be a good idea to get out of there unless you want to end up in the darkness.

 Like the horcruxes in Harry Potter, evil remains alive as long as it has a vessel, object, symbol or something, someone or somewhere to reside.

Orgonite will put a stop to any harvesting.      Maitreya and the Antichrist. Information from Blavatsky and Bailey regarding Sanat Kumara, ascended masters, fallen angels, the holy and unholy trinity and who exactly is the lord of this world.


However, the Bible speaks in several places about spirit beings - angels or demons - being imprisoned (see II Peter 2:4-5 , where Peter again refers to Noah's time; Jude 6; and Revelation 20:1-3 , 7). Rebellious angels, unlike mortal humans, must be imprisoned because angels or demons, being composed of spirit, do not die as humans do. The "angels who sinned," Peter and Jude say, were cast down to Tartarus ("a place of restraint," a prison) where they are bound until God judges them. This Tartarus, this "hell" where the demons are restrained, is none other than their "first estate," their "proper domain," earth (see Ezekiel 28:17 ; Revelation 12:7-9 )!
Read more:

I Kings 22:20-22 presents an incident during which a demon was used to convey a message. This demon did not suddenly appear, walk up to Ahab's false prophets, and say, "I am going to tell lies through you so Ahab can be lured into battle and lose his life." No, the demon remained invisible, transferring its thoughts into the false prophets' minds. To all concerned, during the meetings held to counsel Ahab, it appeared to human eyes and ears that the lying counsel was initiated solely by Ahab's advisors.

Read more:    “New Age or Old Occult.”


 The Christianization of Pagan holidays began about the fourth century A.D. when the Roman Emperor Constantine,
 became (or feigned becoming) a Christian. In order to consolidate his rule, he incorporated the Pagan holidays and
 festivals into the church ritual - attracting the Pagans, but he gave the holidays and festivals new "Christian" names
 and identities …this practice has continued until the present time where we find the two systems, Paganism and
 Christianity, almost indistinguishable
Wheel of the year and pagan holidays. These pagan holidays coincide with religious or other holidays.            
The eight pagan holidays of the year

I suggest researching the blending of paganism and religion in more detail. There is much to be seen.
Here is one example:

Passover, Lent, crucifixion, pagan vs. Biblical holy days, etc.

         The forty days' abstinence of the Lent was directly borrowed from the worshippers of the Babylonian goddess. Such a 
           Lent of forty days, 'in the spring of the year,' is still observed by the Yezidis or pagan Devil worshippers ….This Egyptian 
           Lent of forty days was held expressly in commemoration of
Adonis or Osiris, the great mediatorial god. … commemoration 
           of the death and resurrection of Tammuz.... A pagan connection between Tammuz and Lent is very evident.

            When Nimrod died, Semiramis conceived a son on the 25th December, and believed it to be Nimrod reborn. Now 
          Nimrod, when he died, it was believed that he went into the sun and became the original Pagan 'sun god', and 
          Semiramis his mother-wife, was the Pagan 'queen of heaven'. We have a "queen of heaven" today don't we? And a sun 
          god that is worshipped each SUN-day? Now when Tammuz died, there was great mourning, and 40 days were set aside 
          to mourn for Tammuz each year, and this was to be done before the first full moon after the vernal equinox, which 
          happens towards the end of March.

        It is an indisputable fact of history that the Papacy brought into the Christian Church the VERY same practices  of paganism
        for which ancient Jerusalem was destroyed. One has to do only a little study to see how image worship, Tammuz worship,
        and sun worship were introduced to Christianity during the Dark Ages. Many of these abominations are still with us in the 
        form of statues, candles for the saints, rosary beads, Easter sunrise services and Sunday worship that was brought about
        by the death of millions of innocent saints. Watch this short video of a true story on the
death of a Sabbath keeper.


Regarding Easter, Jesus was not resurrected on a Sunday morning, nor was He crucified on a Friday afternoon. It is impossible to squeeze three days and three nights, which Jesus Himself said would be the length of time He would spend in the tomb (Matthew 12:40 ), between Friday afternoon and Sunday morning. Even so, fantastically detailed and emotionally appealing traditions have presumptuously been built around both these events and have been taught to a deceived public as though they were true.


Believe me, I know that these things can be upsetting. I was very upset but I wanted to know the truth about what comes from God and what comes from man so I went looking for information. Do you want to know the truth or are you just going to be angry that someone tries to tell you to look at something different?

I do feel that we have been lied to, as part of human nature and the struggle to overcome or give in, but I am very upset that so much has been hidden from me and that my soul and spirit suffered horribly because of some of these lies. It's enough for me and I want to know the truth. What about you?

Even if the blending of truth and paganism was done with the best of intentions and the desire to attract as many to the church as possible, where has this blending gotten us now? Are we in a great state of affairs or is it all just one big mess and very confusing? I say very confusing and so I go back to the basics of it all and look to God and Christ in my life. What about you?


Look into the Word of God where He's spoken to the prophets, and given us the guidance He desires for us to have. We are never to seek recourse in a witch, a fortune teller, or an astrologer, but we are to seek and ask from God Himself, and the prophecy He's given us in His Word, the guidance that we need, if we are a child of God, the guidance that God has given us through the indwelling Holy Spirit. That's the truth about psychics from the Word of God.


One of the activities of evil spirits mentioned in the Bible is that of "familiar" or "divining" spirits. These demons appear to have the ability to rouse the spirits of the dead from their ordained sleep. They also seem to be able to foretell the future, to some extent. The first mention we see of these spirits in the Scriptures is a warning from God to avoid consorting with them or the mediums that contact them.

I am not the only one that feels that Satan (aka Sanat Kumara aka Ra) is also Santa. This might be the hardest blow of all to many and the most discouraging for some in this day and age. There might be more to Santa than you know. Ra showed me the spirit of Santa and yes, he was a jolly old spirit, but he appears to be one more aspect or disguise of Satan. Sorry. Satan is the "lower" aspect of Lucifer.

        SANTA - SANAT - SATAN? 
          Sanat Kumara [RA] is worshipped by some new age groups as God. H.P. Blavatsky, the mother of the new age 
        movement, said on page 350 of her book, The Secret Doctrine, Vol. 2: "The name isn't important. It is the
        letters". "Santa" has the same letters as "Satan"! According to G.A. Riplinger, "Ole Nick" is listed as the name 
        of a fallen angel in the Dictionary of Fallen Angels. (New Age Bible Versions, Gail Riplinger, pg. 53)

        Nicholas is one of the most common devil’s names in German, a name that remains today when 
        Satan is referred as Old Nick
. (Siefker, Phyllis. Santa Claus, Last of the Wild Men: The Origins and 
        Evolution of Saint Nicholas.
Jefferson: McFarland & Company, Inc., 1997,






" Importance of YHWH’s name.”


        Following are articles that challenge "religion" and religions. Please understand: We are NOT attacking 
        the people themselves (there are some "saved" people in every church who have that "right relationship" 
        with God). But, rather, we are challenging their "religions" and false doctrinal belief systems which CANNOT
        be verified in the Bible! It is our most fervent prayer that the spiritual eyes of everyone on Earth will be 
        opened …

“Food and the Bible.” A guide to eating following the guidelines in the Bible. A list of clean and unclean foods.

             THE ILLUMINATI EYE that is seen all over these days…is not God’s eye, at least not unless your god is Lucifer.         “How Did Pagan Customs Mix Into Christmas and Easter?”        “Occult Symbolism.”  Information and resources as well on this site. Extensive resource site.       Some interesting comments about the different versions of the Bible, the translations and what is being changed and left out in some instances.        

What is happening is that we are in a nation that is being manipulated and brainwashed to be ready for a New Age religion that will be worldwide. All of these practices, that we have talked about today, are part of that New Age religion.

Read more:

“Fritz Springmeyer – The Top 13 Illuminati Bloodlines & their MindControl” by ToastedMojo.

“Fritz Springmeyer The World System The Illuminati Full Length” by urthnet1.

“Fritz Springmeyer Undetectable Mind Control – Part 1 [first 10 minutes]l” by MuckRaker777.

“Aquarius: The Age of Evil” by uwantsun.  

“John Todd, ex iIlluminati, explaining the illuminati, full video.

“Confessions of an Illuminati Victim – Arizona Wilder” by moviementoinfinito.



“Illuminati: The Music Industry Exposed [Full Length]” by StopTheRobbery2.

“This May Scare You – Illuminati Instrumental” by kievon.

“Former Illuminti explains illuminati in music industry” by RealZeitgeist777.

“…Listen to What JFK Has to Say…” by EconomicCrusader.

“Killuminati: Tupac exposing the Illumnati pt 32/’ by WindowsAccount.

“The Illuminati 2012 LUCIFER Brotherhood of the Beast …” by persepolis2500.

“The Ancient World of Demons, Reptilians, Gods and the Djinn” by WOLVOMAN80.


Obviously I cannot emphasize enough that you look at this subject. Give it a look at least, please.



“Illuminati Symbolism-Logos& hidden symbols” by Bkamikaze.

Is it okay to use a symbol that was originally satanic for another use to change with the times or does that symbol always retain the energy of its original purpose? This is how subtle the deception has been over the centuries. By the time our century rolls around, things have gotten to be very confusing for us and it becomes hard for us to tell the truth from lies. Be aware of this information and decide for yourself. Desensitization. Down the slippery slope…..



…What we have been covering is that one of the side effects of “stripping” the victims from feeling emotions is to cripple them from taking moral stands, from seeing love & concern in the world around them, and from reaching out & forming ties to the outside world. [1]

[1] This is actually a quote from a book on creating a “mind-controlled” slave based upon Illuminati and Satanic procedures, some known for thousands of years, as well of some of the healing methods used. I believe that this is an excellent article about how the effects of fear, trauma and control, among other factors, can have on a person’s life or a population for that matter. I feel that I didn’t have any more feelings left or that it was okay to have feelings. While most of us have not been abducted or programmed specifically, this article seems to touch on what would happen to people if they are controlled in many ways by fear, trauma and other means to achieve a desired effect.  I found some really good information about how to overcome fear as well as a discussion about hope and what it does for a person. I also read about what a lack of hope can do to a person or a society and some other great information.  Even if you don’t believe in any kind of conspiracy, I feel that this is an interesting read with some valuable information. I felt some of these symptoms and I wonder if these are from general mind-control from cartoons, music, movies and other things in life. I don’t know. I certainly don’t feel crazy or out of control now, like I did before. Try to take a look at this article and information with an open mind. It comes from some people very serious about what they do. This site prints the information from the following book: Deeper Insights IntoThe Illuminati Formula, Part 1 by Fritz Springmeier: How the control comes about and Part 2 by Cisco Wheeler: How help comes about.

         “The Hapsburgs of the 13th Illuminati bloodline had a sex salon in Vienna, where a porn
        photographer named Felix Salten worked. Felix Salten wrote a book, Bambi,…”

They just start on us from the time we are very, very small. Like with violent cartoons, trauma by killing one's mother, horror movies, serial killers, you name it. One incident by itself may not be very big but add to that another and another and another and ....

Who reading this was not traumatized in some way when Bambi's mother was shot? My own energy work and releases brought Bambi's mother being shot and killed up as a trauma release. I was either about four or six when I saw the movie for the first time. I never watched it again until I was in my 40's because of how Bambi's mother died.

Many of us are "lukewarm" at the moment, much of it due to programming in my opinion, and many do not seem to care too much about anything or get upset about anything because we have become traumatized and desensitized to all manner of abuses in this world. Many are upset but they will do nothing to change the ways things are or even speak up about what is happening. This is the result, in my opinion, of endless fear, violence, murders, wars, life without God and many other factors. Many struggle every day just to provide food and shelter for them and their families and that leaves little time for worrying about anything else. Who wants to confront abuses to us when we could be entertained instead and so on...Why do we put up with this stuff? Does anyone out there care about what is happening to us? Many become weaker and weaker as time passes and so what happens? Where are we headed?


[1] . “John Todd on Satanic Symbols.”

[2], The Secret History of Mind Control,   18:11 - 18:56 minutes.

[6] Peter Breggin, M.D., Generation Rx [movie], Kevin P. Miller, Producer, 2008, 14:49 minutes.

[7] Generation Rx [movie], Kevin P. Miller, Producer, 2008, 15:39 minutes.


This is a closer up view. I wish that my camera had not gone dead after I took this photo because the image was very clear. I just didn't want it looking at me so after I calmed down a little I wiped the image off of the bricks. This was not taken at my home so I did not want the owners to see it because I was housesitting and they had nothing to do with what was happening to me.

You can clearly see the left eye and a few more details but still, it was a very clear image. This is just a close up of the original photo. I admit freely that I had more to worry about than whether or not the photo was perfectly clear at the time this happened so this is the best that I could get.


When the demonic finally spoke clearly in one case, an expression appeared on the patient's face that could be described only as Satanic. It was an incredibly contemptuous grin of utter hostile malevolence....... when the demonic finally revealed itself in the exorcism of this other patient, it was with a still more ghastly expression. The patient … would open wide with blazing hatred..
---M. Scott Peck, M.D (People of the Lie. p. 196)

"…. From this very scripture, it is clear what the devils will be teaching as doctrine. They will be teaching that THERE ARE NO SUCH BEINGS AS DEMONS! Where are these demons teaching their doctrine? They are teaching it in the churches to the Christians! They are teaching their doctrine to the very ones who have the potential to believe that these demons are real and can expose these beings. If Satan did try to reveal himself and his helpers, then his house would be divided." Pittman warns, "From congregation to congregation, from one church to another church throughout all this land, we find preacher after preacher playing down the existence of demons and even the existence of Satan!

Another principle (giving tactic) of the spirit world is that focal points (occult objects) are used to bring demonic entities into a person’s life. I can not write a technical manual on the mechanics of how or why the presence of evil spirits is aided by amulets, rings, occult jewelry, rock & roll albums, etc., but the fact is, that demonic entities ARE AIDED."


        This writer, trying to explain a difficult subject (demonology), feels fortunate to be able to recommend a book 
        which does a good job of explaining it, this is Howard O. Pittman’s book Demons. (Foxworth, MS: Philadelphian 
        Pub. House, c. 1988). I originally read the book in 1992, and have had it recommended by those who work in the
        area of demonology. The book is written by a devout Christian who worked 28 years in the field of law enforcement
        during his life. The book explains such things as: how man is made in the image of God (and as such is a clone, so
        to speak of God;) How demon possession has come about due to man’s sovereign will allowing it; & How demons
        can interact with the physical world.

                                                                                                                              -Fritz Springmeier



I definitely found out that fear can be a spirit/demon of fear for this is what it feeds upon. Fear DOES NOT come from God.

        The Word of God in 2 TIM 1:7 states categorically that "God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and 
        of love, and of a sound mind." This means that the Spirit of fear comes from the Satan and his world system. The
        Spirit of fear is demonic, and it has the power to paralyze its victim. This Spirit of Fear is nothing less than a 
        demonic anointing. That demonic anointing drives away positive angelic spirits. Christ asked, "Why are ye so 
        fearful? How is it that ye have no faith?" The demonic anointing of fear meant that faith was lacking. If we listen
        to the Word of God, we get faith. (ROM 10:17). ….                    

                                                                                                                                         -Fritz Springmeier



So...I have personally met three beings with slit or reptile eyes - one in a workshop in Colorado Springs and the other two somewhere else. The one in this world seemed friendly enough. I sensed no danger there at that time but it was a shock to see such different eyes looking into mine. The others - not sure to tell you the truth. Is it darkness or just a challenge that I needed to overcome for my own growth and spiritual development. 

Just know that they are out there but I don't know all of the reasons why. I feel that some have not so nice intentions but I don't know about all of them. There is plenty of information on the internet so I suggest you start there. I do know that there is a connection with the fallen angels and Lucifer because these guys work for him, at least the ones that I saw. Since Lucifer is half reptile then they might be his children or other fallen angels. Worth checking out further perhaps.




                                                                                                                    WAKE UP AMERICA
Those who follow the dark side seem to be very good at playing off what is real and these things confus us, but they also appeal to a desire to please the self and not others, instead of serving others as Jesus taught. I found that by going to God and to Jesus that I am protected and shown the truth when I am ready.


ALL-SEEING EYE -- The All-seeing eye originated in Egypt in those Satanic Mysteries which God physically judged during the time of Moses, when he lead the Israelites out of the land by the mighty hand of God.  The All-Seeing Eye was representative of the omniscience of Horus, the Sun God, [Magic Symbols, by Frederick Goodman, p. 103, Satanic symbols book].  As one Masonic book says, "These considerations lead us to an interesting topic, the Eye of Mind or the Eye of Horus ... and conveying the idea of the 'All seeing Eye'.  The end set before the Egyptian neophyte was illumination, that is to be 'brought to light'.  The Religion of Egypt was the Religion of the Light". [Thomas Milton Stewart, The Symbolism fo the Gods of the Egyptians and the Light They Throw on Freemasonry, London, England, Baskerville Press, Ltd., 1927, p. 5]Anyone who knows their Scripture and thinks of themselves as "Christian" should feel right now like they have been slapped alongside their head with a two-by-four!  This Masonic author has just told you that the Light to which Masons constantly refer, and toward which they are to constantly move, is the Religion of Horus!  This is damning, because in Egyptian Mythology, Horus IS Lucifer [Former Satanist, William Schnoebelen, Masonry:  Byond The Light, p. 197]

The pyramid and the "eye of Horus" on the back of the dollar bill are Illuminati symbology. The pyramid is an ancient form based on the holyness of the number 3 to the ancient mystery religions (it, not 6, is considered the most spiritual number), and a pyramid was a structure used specifically to call up the demonic, or occult, a point of psychic activity. 
Part 4: The Illuminati - Freemason Connection


Perhaps there is much truth in what is being taught but there is still the matter of some deceit as to exactly who it is that you are worshipping: In my experience, TGA is also Lucis aka Ra and that is what I was shown.

Freemasonry is a subtle beast. The average person within its ranks has very little idea of the evil that lurks beneath its massive symbolism, but that evil is certainly there. Every aspect of masonry is cunningly designed to destroy men's souls by pulling them away from Christ. I was lucky - Christ Our Lord never allowed me to close my ears to individuals such as yourself whom spoke the truth of the organization. I am grateful for that beyond any words that I could possibly express.


God gave Satan and his demon assistants substantial authority over everything from the earth's atmosphere on down to the earth itself, which includes us, its inhabitants. We must never forget that, in large part, our wrestling, as Paul terms it, is with these spirits. We inhabit the same space they do.

These evil spirits indeed use deceived people to carry out their plans to destroy those in whom God lives. These people are likely under the strong influence of those spirit authorities, and because they are deceived, they are unaware that they are being used! They are not necessarily possessed, as the Bible shows some are, but influenced by demons to act against our best interests.


On the surface, they [demons] have advantages over us because they are invisible to our eyes. As spirit beings, they apparently vibrate at a different frequency than we do, thus our eyes are not naturally equipped to see them. In addition, they can communicate their thoughts and attitudes to our minds through the very air that supports our lives without us even being aware.

If human thoughts and attitudes can be communicated through the air to plants and water, why can demonic thoughts not be communicated to another living being—us—without them overtly revealing themselves?

*************        prison scene Batman vs. Joker The Dark Knight HQ


Always remember:

His hand was there and reached for me when I called.


            Our prayers need to take on the quality of communication that is the ideal when a man and a woman date toward marriage. On the first date, they 
            may not know much about each another, but with further contact their knowledge of each other grows. In talking back and forth, the relationship 
            develops. They discover common interests. They find each other attractive and fascinating. As events progress, they work to improve the relationship 
            so that they can eventually marry, continuing the relationship with greater intimacy, pleasure and productivity. God desires this kind of relationship 
            with His people.


Take note of this: because I was seeking love it was very easy to get trapped by the illusions and the beings that live on the astral plane. This includes the fallen angels because it is where they live. I got trapped in the love and the support there when I was doing energy work and Reiki because they gave me everything that I ever wanted. Just know this and try to stay within because the astral is a dangerous place to be and you can lose your soul and your life if you get trapped by them. God is real and I did find love by going within but the lure of the astral and how it is soothing is still something that I have to deal with constantly. Pay attention to where your energies are focused and if you are in the higher, heart and above chakras, as opposed to the lower ones. I am still learning above love all of the time so I don’t know all the ins and outs but just be aware that my desire for love was what helped me to get this far and find that love within but that it was also a trap on the astral plane when I went outside of myself in seeking that love.



Taken directly from a nationally known psychic’s web site.

“Unlike some pseudo-psychics who tell people that their problems are caused by curses, evil entities, demons, or karmic retribution neither ==== nor ---- will blame the negative occurrences on your life on these things, and each of them feel it is important to advise their clients to not believe in such things. They do not exist.”

This psychic told a family that a missing loved one was dead. This loved one was found to be alive years later. Perhaps her family might not have given up looking for her if they thought she was still alive. The young woman could have been spared years of torture and sexual abuse.

Did she tell the family "Oh, sorry. I made a mistake." And this psychic wants to be called a "spiritual teacher." While I do not think that anyone is perfect, including myself, based upon my personal experiences, it seems that the only spirits she is talking to are those of the dead and not the living God for He does not lie. I advise learning to connect with your own spirit and with God on your own to be safe.


Following someone else was what led me astray and then that person didn't want to take ANY responsibility for what she had said or done or any damage caused. Wouldn't even talk to me about it either. I took responsibility for my own choices and blamed nobody but she wouldn't even talk to me about anything.

Hold your teachers to a higher level of responsibility, moral standards and make sure they have the integrity to back up what they are teaching or saying. If they cannot take responsibility for what comes out of their mouth, get out of there.


While I personally do not feel that demonic entities and such are responsible for many of the negative things or illnesses or accidents that happen in our lives, I do feel that evil, darkness and demonic entities are real. Based upon my own personal experience God and evil are both real and those who tell you differently are lying to you.

A psychic “working for God” personally led me into contact with demonic entities and the false god who is known as Ra or Lucifer. I was fooled by those beings of light and what I saw. I didn’t ask them who they were and took what I saw as true without going any deeper and it almost cost me my life and my soul. Be VERY careful. There are psychics who might know exactly what is out there but many are being fooled because they think that there is nothing evil out there that will hurt them.  That is why we are warned in our holy books. Is it worth your life or your soul for what truth or comfort you MIGHT get from them for that is how the entities will hook you and get you to invite them into your life. They are just waiting for an invitation to come into your life.

Would you not like to learn to talk to the LIVING god instead of the dead for advice and comfort. Leave the dead to go on with their journey. Their time here is done and they are not in the astral realms if they were close to God. What one finds in the astral realms, which is where most psychics are working from, are the remnants or shells of the dead, of criminals, drug and alcohol abusers, murderers, rapists and other unsavory characters who have not made their peace with God. Along the same lines, any entities contacted with a Ouija board are NOT nice people. These things in the astral plane are DEAD, very DEAD and dark so leave them to be that way without inviting them into your life. This plane is where nightmarish things happen so best to leave it alone. They will tell you much, much truth and you may find comfort from what is said but it is a trap. Leave it be. Try to learn to talk to God instead of the dead.

Based upon my own personal experiences with the dark side, people and psychics who tell you that evil, darkness, demonic forces and such do not exist are not doing you any favors and they are lying to you. Evil is very, very real and it likes to trap those who are hurting and do not suspect that they are being fooled. Dark forces can and do imitate those who are alive and dead and I have had this personally happen to me. I have been fooled by the “dead” and those who would imitate those alive as well and when I told a living person what happened they kindly pointed out to me that I was being fooled. It was apparently not him that I was talking to when I thought that I was and this happened on more than one occasion. This was told to me by someone who can see very clearly in the other dimensions. I myself have seen into the astral plane and other dimensions at times and some of what is out there is VERY disturbing and not so nice and loving or angelic. I know that God and Christ are real because they are the ones that had to help me get out of that mess. So, do you still want to believe the “dead” whether they be dead persons, astral shells of those who have died or demonic entities. What does your own heart tell you about these things?

Talking to psychics and others who do not know exactly who they are working with, who cannot see into the other dimensions clearly, who are not working with God’s protection (even if they say that they are) and do not believe in evil, is just an open invitation for these things to come into your life. That is all that they need. Is this really what you want hanging around you.


As I understand it, and if this is true as some teach, and I don’t understand much yet, there are different levels to the different planes of existence. The astral planes(s) are lowest to the earth with heaven “above” or in a higher vibration than the astral plane. On the lowest astral planes seem to be the most unsavory characters such as murderers, rapists, sexual abusers, pedophiles, addicts, drunks, warmongers, demonic forces, fallen angels and such. I don’t know exactly what happens in the other levels of the astral plane. I do understand that one has to pass through the astral plane to get to heaven and that one of the energetic bodies is discarded at that time. This is the reason for the “shells” of dead people floating around in this dimension. One then passes to heaven if deserved I suppose or perhaps stays on a higher level of the astral plane. I don’t know all of it. I have seen some of it in a near death experience and from working in another energetic body or dimension. I do feel though that many people are being deceived by what is on the astral plane and that it is dangerous if one does not know what is going on.

To be safe, try to go directly to God or Christ, otherwise you yourself can be trapped in these lower dimensions when you die. This is not something to be taken lightly. You are very much in danger of losing your life, becoming open to influence from dark forces or possession even. Many people have no idea what is happening out there and the astral is the plane of illusion. It is very much the plane of illusions, fantasy, desire, and relentless urges for those who die addicted and such. It is the home of those who are “evil” on earth as they do not pass to the higher realms or heaven. These things are who many psychics are really talking to and not the spirits of our loved ones.


The psychic who led me to the false god was a "walk-in” who took over the body of another person. This was supposedly done to help others, and granted she does, but she is also leading people to the false god and into danger of losing their souls. She thinks that she works for God but she works for Ra who is also Lucifer. She calls God Ra but she doesn't make the connection and does not realize that the Creator is not Ra. Lucifer/Ra is only the god of this world.


Let me try to give you an example of what possibly lies between this earth (physical realm) and "heaven." This is reflected in some of the teachings out there. I don't know if it is true or not.

Say, for this example, that there are seven levels in the astral plane between earth and heaven. Say that heaven lies out beyond in space but that the levels of the astral plane are around earth and between earth and heaven.

Okay, so someone dies but they don't believe in "heaven." Where might they go? Well, as I understand it, the lowest levels of the astral plane are for the demons, fallen angels, murderers and such. Addicts because of their desires and those who are attached to the material things of this world could be stuck in the lower levels. The astral are the planes of illusion, desires and such. Well, someone going to heaven would go through the astral but not stay. They would continue on to heaven. Others, such as atheists who do not believe in God or heaven and such might be somewhere in between on one of the levels. The higher planes of the astral might be for "good" people who don't believe in God or are there for other reasons. They might not be so low as to be stuck with the demons and such but since they don't believe in God or Christ or heaven then how would they get there? "Hell" might be the lower levels of the astral.

So, we might not know much about these levels and in the end it may not even matter.  It may only matter that we decide whether to serve either ourselves or to serve others and to be with God. Unconditional love is important. I don't know all the answers but if this helps you to understand why you should stay away from psychics, Ouija boards and stuff, then it matters because mostly, they are dealing with those entities and beings in the lower astral planes.




The hours between midnight  and until dawn are the times where darkness is the strongest and when they attack the most.  3:00 a.m.


*************            The Bible Genesis & Geology

The Firmament, Third Heaven,
 and Structure of Things Biblical


"And God said, Let there be a firmament in the midst of the waters, and let it divide the waters from the waters. And God made the firmament, and divided the waters which were under the firmament from the waters which were above the firmament: and it was so. And God called the firmament Heaven. And the evening and the morning were the second day."
(Genesis 1:6-8 KJV)


In summary, here is the structure of the physical world as it now exists from the face of the Earth upwards:

  • The lower sea of physical waters (our seas and oceans)
  • The first heaven (the atmosphere)
  • The second heaven (outer space)
  • The sea above outer space and below the third heaven (a sea of separation)
  • And above it all, there is the Third Heaven.


"The Third World War must be fomented by taking advantage of the differences caused by the "agentur" of the "Illuminati" between the political Zionists and the leaders of Islamic World. The war must be conducted in such a way that Islam (the Moslem Arabic World) and political Zionism (the State of Israel) mutually destroy each other. Meanwhile the other nations, once more divided on this issue will be constrained to fight to the point of complete physical, moral, spiritual and economical exhaustion…We shall unleash the Nihilists and the atheists, and we shall provoke a formidable social cataclysm which in all its horror will show clearly to the nations the effect of absolute atheism, origin of savagery and of the most bloody turmoil. Then everywhere, the citizens, obliged to defend themselves against the world minority of revolutionaries, will exterminate those destroyers of civilization, and the multitude, disillusioned with Christianity, whose deistic spirits will from that moment be without compass or direction, anxious for an ideal, but without knowing where to render its adoration, will receive the true light through the universal manifestation of the pure doctrine of Lucifer, brought finally out in the public view. This manifestation will result from the general reactionary movement which will follow the destruction of Christianity and atheism, both conquered and exterminated at the same time."
Albert Pike



Deliverance is a gift from the Lord Jesus Christ for HIS people. It is NOT for the unbelieving public at large. The Bible refers to deliverance as the "Children's Bread". In 1983 when I was living in Tulsa, Oklahoma, I believed in God but was not living a Christian life and did not have a close walk with the Lord Jesus Christ. In one of my newsletters that exposed the Illuminati, the author had a couple of tapes on offer by a preacher named Win Worley. One was titled, "Mass Deliverance". This tape was a recording of a group deliverance service at a small Baptist church near Chicago. When listening to this tape, I was unprepared for what happened. I listened to the sermon and explanation of terms. I participated in the prayers that the preacher led the group through. I felt that "something" happened but I did not know what. Then the preacher started calling a list of names of demons (lust, jealousy, hatred, etc. there were many of them) and ordered them to leave the people. Immediately I felt VERY strange and "things" started leaving me. Burping, belching, tears, coughing, dry heaves, etc. I just kept participating and praying in my head for anything "bad" to leave me. This went on for about an hour. By the time the tape was over I felt VERY different. The initial session (and many more after) enabled me to get free enough from the holds of the enemy to start walking a Christian life.....IF YOU AREN'T FIGHTING DEMONS, YOU AREN'T FIGHTING MIND CONTROL. The Mars Records: Interview with Michael and Stephanie Relfe by Eve Lorgen



Lucifer is knocking on the door of your heart with a song in Breaking Dawn and you don’t even know it, hear it or realize it. Many cannot even hear it so far have most of us fallen from God.

Lucifer was once the Angel of Music you know and he is every bit as seductive, if not more so, as the vampires in the Twilight series.


See more  about the Angel of Music at:


I find it very interesting how Stephenie Meyer, the author of Twilight, received the story which became a popular hit. I wouldn't have thought much about it until I researched how many pop music artists admitted to channeling their lyrics or music from spirits and how some actors and screenwriters admitted to channeling their ideas and


Meyer confessed to

"I [the author] actually did have a dream after Twilight was finished of Edward [really a demon appearing as Edward] coming to visit me — only I had gotten it wrong and he did drink blood like every other vampire and you couldn't live on animals the way I'd written it. We had this conversation and he was terrifying."..


Marcia Montenegro writes,

Much has been made of the alleged message of Twilight, that it is one of abstinence and shows control over desire. In truth, Edward is controlling himself because he does not want to kill Bella; her life is truly in danger from a ferocious vampire attack from the one who loves her.  Aside from that, a vibrant sensuality of attraction lies just beneath the surface. A TIME reporter who interviewed Meyer wrote, “It's never quite clear whether Edward wants to sleep with Bella or rip her throat out or both, but he wants something, and he wants it bad, and you feel it all the more because he never gets it. That's the power of the Twilight books: they're squeaky, geeky clean on the surface, but right below it, they are absolutely, deliciously filthy.”{17}



The true story of Anneliese Michel [video]


In June 1970, Michel suffered a third seizure at the psychiatric hospital where she had been staying. She was prescribed anti-convulsion drugs for the first time, including Dilantin, which did not bring about immediate alleviation. She began talking about seeing "devil faces" at various times of the day.[1] That same month, she was prescribed another drug, Aolept, which is similar to chlorpromazine and is used in the treatment of various psychoses including schizophrenia and disturbed behaviour.[2] In depression by 1973, she began hallucinating while praying, and complained about hearing voices telling her that she was "damned" and would "rot in hell".[4] Michel's treatment in a psychiatric hospital did not improve her health and her depression worsened. Long term treatment too, did not help and she grew increasingly frustrated with the medical intervention. Being a devout Catholic, she began to attribute it to demonic possession. Michel became intolerant of sacred places and objects, such as the crucifix. ….

The case has been labelled as a misidentification of mental illness, negligence, abuse, and religious hysteria. ….

Ulrich Niemann, a Jesuit priest, doctor and psychiatrist, whom priests call in exorcism cases, told The Washington Post, "As a doctor, I say there is no such thing as possession... In my view, these patients are mentally ill. I pray with them, but that alone doesn't help. You have to deal with them as a psychiatrist. But at the same time, when the patient comes from Eastern Europe and believes that he's been impaired by evil, it would be a mistake to ignore his belief system."

                     How come so few want to acknowledge that demons really exist and that they can possess people?




 Because nobody ever taught most of us how to deal with this part of life. It happens.

Not too long ago, I saw a demon in the eyes of a drug addict. The addict probably doesn't even know he/she is being influenced in any way. I can see it in the eyes and all I can do is pray for this person. This stuff is real. They do exist and we are letting them into this world more and more every day. Why do you think that deliverance ministries are springing up and evangelicals are getting stronger. That should be a clear sign that the sides are being chosen and that both the light and the dark are getting stronger.


I saw another demon once in the eyes of a woman when I was at a party. When they know the person doesn't want help or they are in control they are brazen and they delight in making sure that you see them. This one appeared as the woman was eating bacon wrapped shrimp, two of the most unclean foods which we are advised not to eat in the Bible. The demon was literally very much enjoying that I could see it but do nothing.


I would like to point out that I have only seen this possession a few times and only because I saw the demonic being directly in the eyes of the person being influenced. Not everyone that does drugs is possessed. Most probably are not but there is the possibility if one uses substances that alter the mind and deplete the energetic field. If one is not protected by God that would also be a factor, among other things. Trauma such as sexual abuse can allow them to get in as well as other factors. Don't overreact and think that everyone is possessed. Just be aware that it could happen. See a priest or pastor if you think this could be an issue or ask God and Christ for help.

Here is a site with some thoughtful, well-presented information:


Before we get into the warning signs, I want to make an important point. What follows is a guide; it can help you to make a determination whether there is a psychiatric problem or a demonic one. However, it is not the end all. One should not read an article on brain tumors and diagnose themselves as having one. Neither should they look at this article and decide they are possessed by an evil entity. If you are the type of person who is very suggestible, I suggest you do not read any further. The purpose of this article is to inform people regarding what is out there. It is not meant to scare the hell out of anyone. If you feel that you are or may be possessed, please contact a professional. You can contact this website or any other site that deals with the subject of demonic possession. Do not diagnose yourself.



For anyone being haunted, disturbed, nightmares, demonic attack, hallucinations, hearing voices, seeing things and other things that disturb one in the mind please note: I found that for me, reading the Bible helped to keep me safe from those demons that would do me harm. God protected me but when they could get to me in my dreams and what I saw, then reading the Bible helped to put God’s word into my mind so that they could not influence me while I was reading. They could influence me if I was just lying there in bed but once I started reading they would go away.


These videos are really not that scary and it is Christ that takes command over the demons and Lucifer.

What do you think about the above video?                          Deliverance from demons including Quetzalcoatl                         Exorcist Bob Larson is Face to Face with "Lucifer"!      Bob Larson’s Exorcism Channel                  Demon Lucifer (In A Woman) Orders Its Demons Not To Panic, Sunday                       How Agents Of Lucifer Use Facebook




            when in reality Lucifer is sneaking in through the back door while we are watching the front.

using fear, control, toxins, pollution, sexualization, murder, music, movies, videos that promote all these ideas and all sorts of evil....approval of sin in our lives, abuse, war, murder, spells, ...

Disaster may come knocking on our front door to get our attention if we don't do anything but it is still coming in the back under our noses at the same time.

If he makes it into your heart or you invite him in then you are very much in danger of losing your life and your soul. The capstone on the pyramid can and will shut out the clear light of day and God and seal you in a tomb of matter, decay, darkness and evil. Is this what you want?


Maybe our view of God changes as we evolve. When once a view of a stern or judgmental God was enough now we are tired of that and we want a healthier relationship. When once a distant god was enough now we want to talk to him personally. When once faith was enough, now we want God to be more than words and we want our Creator to be real to us. When once sacrifice and harsh punishment was enough to stop us from "sinning" now we have developed compassion or other ways of doing things. Where once idol worship explained what happened in the world or in the heavens and we looked to some sort of gods, perhaps now we can have a personal relationship with our Creator. Where once the material world supplied our needs for the most part perhaps now we can look to our spiritual side for fulfillment as well. Perhaps religions are part of the growing and learning. They don't have to be "bad" and they serve a very valuable purpose. Perhaps we just learn and grow as we evolve. How about we are all in different "grades" in this school of life. We have so much higher we can go in developing a personal relationship with God inside of us instead of seeing the Creator as somewhere outside of us. ... and more ... think about this for a minute or two or three.

We are learning and growing all of the time. Why not expand on what we have learned and know and evolve into a personal relationship with God as a loving, caring Father and one who is involved in our lives.

Aren't we all thirsty? Aren't many of us tired and feel like something is missing from our lives? Don't we want more of something?
How about love? There is so much available and it is as close as your own heart and God's spirit in you.


It occurs to me that man can die once to God and return to Him for forgiveness … but then he can never go back to the dark side.


Praise be! I am a minister of music and yes, Lucifer stays BUSY wthin the life of the worship and praise experience for those who seek fame & fortune as opposed to GOD’s favor. There remain MANY who still do not acknowledge that praise & worship were once the resposiblity of Lucifer…now is the time to take back all the “stuff’ the devil’s stolen and use it to advance GOD’s kingdom…be it rap, classical, rock, spoken word, spirituals, gospel, etc….let him and his unheavenly hosts know that we will not lose!

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How I feel about the Sabbath – Saturday is the seventh day of the week, at least for now anyways. I bought a calendar for 2013 and I noticed that this calendar was very unusual and different from any I had ever seen before. This calendar starts with Monday and now puts Saturday and Sunday together at the end of the week, making Sunday the seventh day of the week, at least on that calendar.

…Mmmm…sneaky little fellows…gotta give them credit for that and for trying. They are very good at what they do. Wonder what else they have been up to?


Standing up to evil and darkness was a very important lesson for me.

For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. Stand therefore, having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.



The Bible makes it clear that God has willed that this warfare is an absolute necessity for the development and preparation of His children to live in His Family Kingdom. It cannot be avoided; we cannot remain neutral. In one sense, we really have no choice. We must either fight or be lost.


The Plain Truth About Easter                 


SATURDAY   Is it the 7th Day of the Week?


Until the 2nd and 3rd century, Christians kept the Jewish Sabbath, which occurs from Friday night to Saturday night each week. Observing the Sabbath on Sunday, the day of resurrection, gradually became the dominant Christian practice from the Jewish-Roman wars onward. Before then, Christianity was predominantly still a Jewish sect. The Church's general repudiation of Jewish practices during this period is apparent in the Council of Laodicea (4th Century AD) where Canons 37–38 state: "It is not lawful to receive portions sent from the feasts of Jews or heretics, nor to feast together with them" and "It is not lawful to receive unleavened bread from the Jews, nor to be partakers of their impiety".[52]


  ... and then they wonder why people are so confused and fed up with the religions, the churches and the leaders and turn away ...






What if loving our enemy or adversary is not giving them what they want?

What if we can help Lucifer and the fallen angels? What if, by changing our own behavior and becoming more like God, we can help them? I mean by this, if we stop feeding them with fame, fortune, celebrity, power, control, authority, pollution, us being angry, victims and other stuff not like God, then maybe they will be the ones who are suffering and will then turn to God for redemption or salvation or help? What if … What do you think?


When is the birthday of Christ

Most biblical scholars and preachers readily admit that they know Christ was not born on December 25th.  However, they claim that this day is as good as any other to celebrate the birth of Jesus, despite the fact that it was originally a pagan celebration called Saturnalia which commemorated the birth of the sun god.

Few know that there is a biblical way to determine when the Messiah was actually born.  We can do this by relating the conception and birth of Jesus (Yeshua) with the conception and birth of John the Baptist.




Are the Sabbath and Holy Days Done Away? by Earl L. Henn (1934-1997)

The distortion of this portion of Scripture stems in part from a misunderstanding of Colossians 2:14 , from which many deduce that the law was done away and nailed to the cross. (For a detailed explanation of Colossians 2:14 , see the June 1995 article on this topic.) They reason that Paul is saying in verse 16, "Therefore [since the law is done away] don't let anyone condemn you for eating unclean meats or not observing the Sabbath or holy days." Consequently, they interpret verse 17 to mean that Paul lightly dismisses the Sabbath and holy days as unimportant symbols of future events, while emphasizing that the only truly substantive Christian need is belief in Christ. From this, they conclude that we should not concern ourselves about these days because, since Christ died, their observance is not required.


It is also a violation of Jeremiah 10:2-5 where it [christmas tree] is denounced as a heathen idol:

Thus saith the Lord, Learn not the way of the heathen, and be not dismayed at the signs of heaven; for the heathen are dismayed at them. For the customs of the people are vain: for one cutteth a tree out of the forest, the work of the hands of the workman, with the axe. They deck it with silver and with gold; they fasten it with nails and with hammers, that it move not. They are upright as the palm tree, but speak not: they must needs be borne, because they cannot go. Be not afraid of them; for they cannot do evil, neither also is it in them to do good.


Love makes the darkness flee. Love makes the vampires and the fallen angels back away or flee.  Love is what makes them cross their arms in fear in front of them in an attempt to block out the light. Love is the key to defeating the darkness.


 I feel that Christ brought to us some very important teachings but I do not feel that he just threw away the first 33 years of his life either. I find that I truly appreciate having a day to give to God, to rest and to learn and study. I find that Passover means a great deal to me and is a reminder to me that God has brought me out of the wilderness in my own life. Yes, I appreciate the fact that Christ died for us but I appreciate more the sacrifices that were made as well as the example that he set for us. I choose to follow God and Christ because that is what my heart tells me is best for me and this comes after study, after learning how to have a personal relationship with God and Christ [still learning every day], checking out other religions and belief systems, exploring, experimenting and other things. This is what my heart tells me is best.


All I ask or all that I am saying is to go to God directly. 
Experiment and try observing the Sabbath [yes, the whole day] or some of the other holy days and see how your heart feels if only just to get a different point of view.


The fact of the matter is that there is not one scripture that says, “The Sabbath is now Sunday.” After all, the Ten Commandments are the ONLY thing that God spoke in such incredible fiery majesty, thundering His voice from the mountain top as everyone below trembled in fear and then personally wrote this magnificent law into stone tablets, yet there is not one clear scripture. Just assumptions! One of God’s Commandments supposedly goes and we do not have even ONE clear scripture. Why not? The answer is simple. It was never changed to Sunday by the authority of God so no such scripture exists. It was actually changed as a result of SUN worship, hence the name SUN-day.

Who Made Sunday Holy?
“Question - Which is the Sabbath day?
“Answer - Saturday is the Sabbath day.
“Question - Why do we observe Sunday instead of Saturday?
“Answer - We observe Sunday instead of Saturday because the Catholic Church, in the Council of Laodicea (A.D. 364), transferred the solemnity from Saturday to Sunday.” — Peter Geiermann, C.S.S.R., The Convert’s Catechism of Catholic Doctrine, p. 50, 3rd edition, 1957.


I don't see what the big deal is and how come we have to fight about it. Saturday is the seventh day. Sunday is the first. Why not just respect the ten commandments and go to church on Saturday. No law discussions. No old vs. new testament. Just facts. The ten commandments are fulfilled that way and not one is left out. What's the big deal and why all the insistence about Sunday? I don't get it.

I was raised Catholic and brought up with Sunday worship. I don't have any problem switching my day to worship, to learn and to study and spend time with God to Saturday. It is what He says not what I want. That is what matters to me. What God says comes first not what I want.


There really is an invisible world out there. There are supernatural forces of good and evil at play behind the scenes, and the Bible reveals to us what these forces really are. Steve Wohlberg's book “Hour of the Witch” clearly explains from a Biblical perspective the hidden risks of Wicca. He compares the beliefs of Wicca witchcraft to the truths of the Bible, in a non-judgemental fashion and demonstrates the danger that the Bible foretells can come upon those who open up the wrong spiritual gateways. Whether you are a Christian, a Hindu or a practising Wiccan, you will find this book to be highly informative and enlightening.

Obviously, not every kid who reads Harry Potter is going to rush out and join a coven. It’s also true that much of the magic described in J.K. Rowling’s series isn’t exactly what real occultists do. But that doesn’t make any difference. Lucifer is diabolically brilliant, and he knows that when a generation’s hero is a ‘cool’ wizard who experiences exciting supernatural power through Witchcraft, this will create an interest to explore the real thing in many young hearts. Oberon’s Grimoire is proof that occultists also realize this – even if naive parents don’t – and they are capitalizing on the “rising tide of youthful interest in benevolent magick...a trend reflected in the interest in Harry Potter.”



If entities become lodged in your sacral center then they can influence your sexual desires, preferences and practices. If they are lodged in your solar plexus they can influence you with greed, fear, power, control and other things. If they are lodged in your heart you are very much in danger of being lost. If they lodge in your throat center they can influence what you say. If they are lodged in your mind, they can influence how you think, scare you, create hallucinations or nightmares, make you cringe in fear and you can hear voices, among other things.


Jesus/Yeshua/Christ spent some of his time casting out demons. Perhaps there was a reason for this being mentioned in the Bible and other holy books. Maybe because it is a subject that we should take a look at in more detail. I don't think that it has to be a huge amount of time but it seems to me that it is a subject that we should learn more about and learn to deal with in our lives.



So, here is one that I have seen on a few occasions. He is blacker than black in the astral plane and he has bright green eyes. He/it has the height and physical aspects of a man but he is dark, dark energy.


Later on I realize that this guy is attached to my fear and more specifically, to the trauma of being stalked and beaten and almost killed by an angry man. This guy represents the black hole of fear in my life and how I got sucked into that fear. This guy was only defeated by letting God into my life and letting Him love me. Love seems to be the only thing that can defeat this kind of fear. This kind of fear results in spiritual blindness and it was only by listening to God and to my own spirit that together we were able to overcome this fear. I did not do it alone. Most of it is gone as I write this and more is leaving at the same time. I'll talk more about this later and in the article on Fear and my PTSD in a bit.


All that it takes to defeat Satan is truth, standing on God's word. The only power Satan and his followers have over us is what we choose to give them. They are all smoke and mirrors; deception is their only weapon. The Scripture says in James 4:7-8... "Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you." Sometimes the enemy does not flee because we are not submitted to God. We need to line up with His will and His way and then the devil will flee. Because Jesus was in Gods will and He resisted Satan he does flee. This is our example on how to fight the enemy; all that it takes is being in God's will and standing on His word.


        No matter what they throw at you, always remember that there is a spirit of Christ which is life and that Yeshua/Jesus/Christ overcame this world.


I go into a personal relationship with God.


Check out the following:   

“Sensing Satan using Magnetic Resonance Imaging” by zaidg.


Here are a few notes about the energy of the PTSD.

As a result of this trauma, there was a torn or broken "bridge" between the solar plexus and the heart that had to be healed. This energy surfaced after I was able to let more love back into my life. It initially surfaced with severe pain in the lower part of the heart as well as the solar plexus area. See, love brings all of this to the surface and helps clear anything that is of a vibration lower than love to the surface for healing. This can be done slower in life, and most of us do resolve our issues slower, but I chose to try to deal with it in a faster way. How you do it is up to you but I hope all of this gives you a little insight into how things that happen to us can affect us on a much deeper level than we realize.

Because of weeks and weeks of being stalked and hurt on more than one occasion, I discovered during an energy release and working with my energy, that my mind or mental body shattered from the trauma and the fear and constant stress. I didn't know that this happened but I felt the fracturing as the energy released. Right now, the next day, my mind feels fractured and my head and brain feel full of pieces of energy that feel like shattered glass and it is sharp and painful. This makes a lot of sense to me. This can be healed now.

This guy was the first guy that I loved and all that happened broke my heart and shattered my mind. I couldn't understand why he would want to hurt me so badly. I didn't abuse him. I left him and this is how he took out his pain on me. He blamed me and he wouldn't take any responsibility for anything that he had done. I went through weeks and weeks of being stalked, being punched in the stomach, having my home broken into and being attacked, my head was slammed into the car, being run off of the freeway, finding him outside my home and work, being hunted by him everywhere that I went, him coming to a friend's house with a gun while he was looking for me. He came after me again and again and again and again and this obviously was too much. This resulted in a fracturing of my mind and/or mental body. The fracturing and breaking like glass is felt in the head.

There is a huge entity attached to this fear and pain - the kind that makes people's eyes go black. This comes from trauma. I feel this entity and I see it as well. It was affecting my heart and my head at the same time. He feels large and like he is lodged in my heart and head. He has black eyes, feels dark, folded wings like a fallen angel, but not as strong as God and myself together.

What happened is that the stalking and such created so much fear and pain that this thing was able to attach to me, and the scary part, get inside of me, and I think even more so as a result of the fracturing. This is the demonic that "got my eyes" because after that I didn't want to see so much in the world or what it had to offer. I could see only pain and hurt and fear at that point. It had suddenly become a very, very scary place to be and I didn't have the skills to be able to deal with this kind of situation, among others, in my life. It became so hard to let anyone into my life after that trauma and the fear got worse and worse as a result. I was never really comfortable with sharing feelings or talking aobut life or having anyone there to talk to me.

Love can trigger the fear and it does but it also helps me to release it and God never leaves my side.

It is now two days later and my mind feels a whole lot more clear and my heart feels open and excited again. I feel like me again and that darkness is gone. I feel free again.



If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

                                                                                                        2 Chronicles 7:14


How can I be tactful, blunt, compassionate and sensitive to this subject all at the same time: don't know but here it goes

Based upon thousands of hours working with the energies in my body --- the genital area and especially the sacral area, including the anus, is connected to the third eye. The third eye or spiritual eye, in the center of the forehead and behind, is directly connected to our sexuality and the genital area of our body.

Sodomy can  steal the light of God from a person and blind a person spiritually. Whoever you give this energy to can influence you and sodomy comes from the dark side, rebellion and serving the self, not from God. It can contribute to spiritual death.

Be very careful what you are doing with your body. This energy may or may not come from another lifetime. I don't know all of the answers. This realization comes from seeing where the energies of the body connect and work together, as well as mistakes I made in my life, including dancing with the dark side unknowingly. Where you focus your sexual and life energies will give you a good idea of where your life is focused - on the self or in service to others and to god. Doesn't mean that one is completely selfish or focused on sex but try to pay attention to where your energies are focused and what is happening in your body.


I am glad that God has boundaries and that I know where I stand with Him.
                                    This makes it safe for me to be with Him.


There is a part of me that has no fear, that only loves and it lies underneath and through all the fear and the pain. I don’t have to go through it all if I can just make the leap and choose to love. The hard part for me is that I spent so much time unfamiliar with love because I kept running from it. Now it seems so hard to get past the fear and just let it in.


I know that God will never abuse me, neglect me, try to rape me or sodomize me or have an incestuous relationship with me. I know that He is slow to anger, quick to forgive, always loving and always there for me.


I know that I was scared of Him but it was this world that scared me so much and not anything that God had done to me.

The very fact that God has boundaries and rules means that He provides a safe place for me to heal because I know exactly where He stands on issues. He is firm, solid, fearless and always loving and He never stops being there for me no matter what happens, how I feel or what I do. He never leaves me alone.



           ...   and the proud little Egyptian queen standing by the false god Pharoah's calf is in God's world and reality only a small girl holding on to the leg of her Heavenly Father ...



                         ... and the moon fell from the sky into the ocean and its wake swept away everything that I thought I was ...





from last temptation of ego ...

EGO = Easing God Out
            (I don't know where this came from. I heard it on television on an Oprah's Lifeclass program with Iyanla Vanzant.)

Basically, ego is anything in us that distances or separates us from God and others, such as fear, anger, rage, jealousy, pride in so many of its forms, greed, isolation, depression, abuse, control and other emotions and states of mind. I wish I could explain it better but I cannot at this time. One could study the Buddhist beliefs on ego and attachment as well as many, many other sources. This study might not be a bad idea because actually learned a great deal about myself and others by studying this topic. This is especially true in how the ego creates suffering and how it relates to attachment to something and how that creates suffering. I'll see if I can find some info for you to access here.

ego drawing if you want to see how I see my own ego for an example.

Silly me....I was fooled again by the lies of the serpent...disguised in parts of the New Age movement this time.

I think some parts of the new age are neutral and that there is much truth in what is being said; however, there is a little darkness in there that I experienced which I would like to share with you on this site.

Fooled by the very idea that I could be like a god in my own right.

Silly me...that is all a huge ego and pride the idea of me wanting to be a god or like a god. This would be the biggest way that I could fall away from God. This is ironic, or a twist in life, given that so much of the new age teachings are about the ego and how to overcome it and get back to God.
I thought that I was special in some way by becoming aware of the teachings and the "initiation" requirements and practices of the new age. Well, I am special to GOD and I know that now but in my pride and my desire to be special and have power and control in my life I got myself into trouble by following some the teachings of the new age and more specifically the Bailey and Prophet books and the ascended masters. It was my pride that got me into trouble and led me right into the trap because I thought that I had access to some "special" knowledge that others didn't have, or all others anyways. That should have been my first clue in that the Bailey teachings left lots of other people out. I thought that I had found something different that set me apart and made me feel special. I think that is the biggest trap since it appealed to my pride. I felt special for the first time in my life in the new age and I felt that I finally belonged. God loves all His children equally and He has no such initiation, special rites or other requirements that His children have to go through to go Home. That is a lie. He gives His love freely to everyone and we do not need the new age practices to go home. I just needed to follow His son.

These teachings appealed to my desire to belong to a family of sorts among other things, to my desire for knowledge, to my desire to be strong instead of helpless, to be able to connect with others, to feel supported and loved and to belong, among other things.

Geez, what I really wanted to do was to go HOME and I thought some of the ways they were teaching 
would be a way to get there...Well, I got there eventually, but I got trapped on the way by these teachings of the false gods who would use lots of knowledge to try to get home. Well, they might be like gods and they might be immortal, but they are gods of and in hell, not children in Heaven. They are the gods in charge of this hell-fraught little world and would like nothing better than the children of God to join them or to take us away from God.

It was so cleverly packaged this time...channeled material, readings, teachings in books containing much truth but lies as well.

I DO NOT want to be a god or God or have God's responsibilities for the whole universe.

I am not God. I am not Christ.                 I am a child of God just like you.


I get to have free will and have someone bigger to guide me and give me support. I don't have to try to do it all by myself. Whew!

More to come here from the book and on other pages in this site but this gives you the idea of what I mean. I was trapped by the biggest appeal to the ego which to me is a desire to be like a god or God. Is that not the lie of the serpent in the garden all over again? Maybe there is some truth to what is being said but do we not need to learn from a parent first before we can be all grown up?

Want to know what trapped me?

The love and support of those beings who were able to show love. I DID NOT know that fallen angels and demons could show love and support. Who knew? I knew that they could appear as beings of light but I didn't know that they could show love. Also, the teachings are so supportive and helpful when one wants to do good in this world. They show you how to be a better person, how to help make this world a better place, how to eat better, how to be a better disciple, scientific methods and how to get home in a practical way, among other things. The teachings make so much sense and they contain so much truth but they are cleverly disguised and they conceal some deceit but just enough to trap us. Of course I had unknowingly invited evil and darkness into my life by following some teachings that I thought would lead me home to God.

I was trapped by desire for God, desire for love, selfishness, fear and a desire for safety, among other things. Be wary of these traps as they can keep you stuck in the astral plane and allow you to be influenced by not so nice beings. Go beyond the fear and the desires and such and look for the place where these do not exist. It appears to me that no ego exists where God is to be found. Strangely enough, I was helped out of the mud once. Then, my own selfish desire for love and for God got me trapped again, like the snake chasing its own tail, and then I finally realized what happened and how selfish I actually was being that helped me realize that my own desires were trapping me for the most part. God is real to me but not in the place of selfish desire, even for him and for love. I realize that I need to do something differently and learn to help others if I want to really be in closer touch with God and my own spirit. Still, I grow stronger every day and even getting trapped again has helped me to purge my desires further and realize that I was being selfish. This is where all of this helps me to get stronger and more aware of what is happening around me and in my life. Lessons learned once again and help is always available even if I have to learn my lessons the hard way sometimes. Just take note how the desires and ego can trap you in the astral plane and allow others to influence you. Be aware.

I found that it is God's love and our relationship with Him that protects us from evil, as well as us not inviting it into our lives in any way, at least that is how it worked out for me. That is why I feel that everyone should go directly to God and/or Christ in their own life and leave out ALL of the middlemen. Only there can one be sure that you are getting the truth and the whole truth. I was brought up with the belief that one must go through Christ and I did but I also know that there are those who do not feel the same way. I think that most of us believe in God in our hearts and so, go to Him directly, and He will show you the way.

If one has invited evil and darkness into their lives, knowingly or unknowingly, they can be removed with God's help.

Don't call me for help. Call Father and/or Christ.

Anyways... if this world was such a great place, none of us would ever want to leave and go to our real home. We would be content to stay here because we would be happy. We see examples of good and evil all around us every day and that gives us an ability to see the difference and to choose which side we want to be on. Personally, I'm tired of this hamster wheel. I want off and I want to go Home.

Maybe that is why we are so depressed. We know something is wrong. We have lost that connection to ourselves, to others and to God in a very important and fundamental way. We need these connections but perhaps the depression and living in some kind of hell serve a higher purpose.  Perhaps that purpose is to let us know that something is wrong and to show us the way out if we will but listen to what our spirits are trying to tell us.

The things of darkness are appealing to those who do not have any family support or emotional connections. They appeal to those who are looking for a "family" in some way. They appeal to those who want to do good. They appeal to those looking for love and support and a way in this world.

They appeal to those who are disillusioned with the religions of this world. For me, it was Catholicism and the way that I felt guilty and afraid. To me, it made God seem to be angry and judgmental instead of friendly. Religion wanted me to go through a priest instead of talking to God directly but I never felt that was true. It felt stiff and suppressing of my spirit instead of encouraging and friendly to me. It didn't answer my questions. I liked going to church before I understood everything they were trying to tell me and I started to feel guilty and afraid of God. I still believed in God but I didn't know where to find him anymore after I Ieft the church. I got trapped by truth because I thought I had finally found some realistic, practical ways to get Home, little knowing that all I had to do was go directly to Him in my life.

I was scared and I didn't know how to connect with myself or others in an emotional way. I didn't know how to set boundaries, discuss conflict, deal with anger, work out problems. I didn't have much self-esteem and I felt unloved and unsupported. I was afraid. I wanted to be able to take care of myself and not get hurt anymore. I also thought that I had to do everything by myself. My pride got the better of me. I wanted help and love and support but I thought that I had to do it by myself. I thought that I was supposed to do it by myself. I wanted to be able to keep myself safe from harm and I didn't know how to find God so the teachings about how we could be better and stronger appealed to me. I didn't know how to ask anyone for help. I thought that I would not have to be so afraid anymore if I was in control. I was scared of men and I was also scared of God and so I turned to myself and to science for answers instead of God. Not that science is evil but in my fear I was unable to turn to others for help and love for fear of being hurt or killed and so I didn't have much love, if any really, in my life.  I was tricked and deceived in the process by beings that I thought were of God or from God because of the way that they presented themselves and I almost lost my life in the process.

I think that learning new skills helped me to be stronger and to do better in my relationships but as far as finding out that God was real, I only needed love. God did not seem to care whether or not I knew a lot of the things that I studied over the years. He seemed only to care what was in my heart and if I wanted to share with Him and put Him first in my life. That's all I ever wanted. I knew that He didn't make me wrong or defective and I was looking for Him because I knew that was the best place that I could be. It seems that God wants only to share love with His children.

I know that some of you might laugh at me but I don't care. God's love seems to be available to everyone and He is real. We have so much evil in the world and there is so much love as well. Lots of us have just been knocked around and we have lost contact with that love in so many ways. I just went looking for it in a different way because I couldn't find what I needed so badly here. I put more effort into my relationship with God because that is where I wanted and needed to be. I put Him first instead of a boyfriend or a spouse. I'm glad I did. Any one of you can do the same thing if you desire to do so. It's a matter of where you want to be in your life. You get to choose where you want to be. I made my choice already.

Here is some basic information:                                    A discussion of “ye are gods…”

When I saw Christ I didn't see any other gods or goddesses with Him. I saw Christ as bigger than this world and as the guardian of this world. The only other being I felt was GOD and I didn't see Him. I  felt His presence.

This is a painting of what I saw and although it was done by another person, it is a direct view of what I saw myself:


As a former new ager I can say that I definitely felt this way:

Even though New Agers--in the fallenness of their human pride--declare their equality with God, deep within them remains a realization that they are not capable of bearing the burden of freedom they so arrogantly claim. Subconsciously they long for a Savior-God, a God like the God of the Bible. Like little children who have thrown a tantrum and run away from home, they find that the world is a much greater and more dangerous place …

I definitely felt this way when I learned God was real and when He saved me from the fallen angels. Whew! I do not have to do this all by myself. Thank God, literally, that there is someone bigger than myself.


Gods and goddesses - such as Zeus, Helios, Vesta, Anubis, Horus, Ra, Quetzlcoatal, Kulkulcan, the one represented by the statues on Easter Island, The Great Architect of Freemasonry and many others - are all Lucifer or the fallen angels in disguise.

All the different teachings for secret societies and organizations seem to stem from the same gods and ancient teachings. The most familiar to me is the Egyptian mystery school teachings which seem only to be wearing a different set of clothes but are essentially the same as Masonry, Rosicrucianism and others. All of them blended into one but remained mostly Egyptian in nature and all done on another plane as well as an inner state of mind. Can't prove this to you in any way other than be telling you of my experiences. One would have to do it for himself or herself to know. Just trying to put the pieces of the puzzle together for others so we can all figure out what is happening.

***********       “The Kingdom of God is within you.”

        And I often do this. I find a delight in it, and whenever I can relax from my necessary duties
         I have recourse to this pleasure. [I experience] a state of feeling which is quite unlike anything 
         to which I am used — a kind of sweet delight which, if I could only remain permanently in that 
         state, would be something not of this world, not of this life. But my sad weight makes me fall 
         back again; I am swallowed up by normality. 

                                                                                            St. Augustine
“The Ego 1 Introduction.wmv” by mcarthurthedave.                                                                          
“Ego – Thich Nhat Hanh PL” by rohatsu.

For more information please see Fallen Angel. This page does contain a photograph which may disturb some people so if you feel that this will be too much, please do not go to this page.



There seems to be some concern that feelings or a healthy sense of self are not okay or not of God. This seems to go hand-in-hand with the belief that we are all miserable sinners or something like that and that we should not have any self-esteem or anything like that in our lives. Perhaps we are sinners but maybe we are just children learning like in a school.  I disagree with the idea that we need to be weak in spirit always except maybe when we surrender to God in our helplessness. I know that I went to God in my brokenness and lack of strength but He has also helped me to grow up spiritually since that time and to be stronger in my own spirit as well as walking with Him. This feeling is based upon my experiences and personal research.  I think that there are two separate ideas which are (1) the ego; and (2) a healthy sense of self vs. an unhealthy sense of self.  I think there is such a thing as being able to have a healthy sense of self-esteem but not have a big ego. A big ego is not compatible with God and that means a person who is controlled by anger, desire for power, greed, lust and wanting to exert power or control over others, among other things. On the other hand, a healthy sense of self-esteem, renewed confidence, an ability to protect myself, stand up for myself and others and healthier communication skills, have made me less controlling, less angry, less fearful and more compassionate towards people.

Having a healthy sense of my own self, surrendering to God's will instead of my own, and with my strength coming from Christ and Father, as well as my own spirit, makes me a better warrior in this battle. I would never have done any of this without a connection with God or being able to handle myself better in situations with other people or beings. I know where my strength comes from and I know just how incapable I am of protecting myself against those other beings without God. Having a strong sense of self makes it easier for me to surrender to God's will even though I still struggle. A weak sense of self and a big ego meant that I fought Him every step of the way. I did fight Him just about every step of the way. One of the most recent energies that came up was my hate and my anger, including towards God, for what happened in my life, the hurt, the lost years, all of it. I fought Him hard  because of my hurt and anger and most of the time I wasn't aware that I was feeling that way. I did manage to come to an understanding and resolution as well as perhaps seeing part of His side of the what happened and why. Understanding and talking to Him then, helped me resolve my life, find forgiveness, find acceptance and to move forward, stronger in the relationship.


There seems to be confusion between an ego or person that is concerned only about the self or serving themselves vs. a person who chooses to serve God and others as well as one’s own spirit. One can freely choose to serve either themselves or others and God. The choice lies with the individual always.


Children are humble and faithful and loyal and exuberant and they have no sense that they are sinners. They are loving, happy and a good example of how we could be in going to our Father. The healthier my sense of self, the easier it is for me to let Father and Christ take the lead and to let them guide me. When I was sick and I had very unhealthy self-esteem I had a very hard time letting them into my life because of fear, distrust and my desire to control as much as I could. Feeling strong inside makes it easier to surrender and makes me a better person and to have less ego since I am secure instead of insecure.

Here is some more info about some of the new age teachings:


They teach one how to be a good disciple and how to have their own Christ self, while God teaches that we accept His son and follow and obey Christ.  Christ and the Christ life/spirit is in each of us if we so choose. Do you see somewhat how very similar the teachings are and why people are confused and drawn to the teachings.  These teachings appeal to our ego and desire to be powerful and in control but they lead to death and not life.

Big difference though even though the teachings are very similar. Big deception. Very confusing. There is a difference. If you want to be with God, then one must accept Christ as the savior first, not want to be their own Christ, have their own Christ self or be their own god or god first. One will be strong with the son of God as a partner and will live, not die.

Unconditional love and service to others are keys. Serving God before yourself is another key.

If you take the Luciferic initiation of the new age, you will align yourself with fallen angels, demons and death not "Christ" as they tell you. It is their "office of the Christ" and it sounds real good, but it is a trap.
I have seen both sides. I don't know everything nor do I pretend to know it all. I can only tell you what I have seen and let you decide for yourself. I was deceived by the teachings of Lucifer. I  felt myself dying as a result of their "teaching" and being connected with them and the initiation process.  I have also seen and felt the life that God gives to those who accept His son. I'll take God and the real Christ any day.

The choice is yours, always, but all I am saying is to know where you are going as you make it.





"Clearly the Lucifer of this movement that wants to unite all religions is the basis of operation for theosophy, Masonry, Rosicrucianism, Bahai and numerous other false philosophies. It is a fact if one goes through Lucifer to experience the Christhood he is offering if they come out they are scarred. Lucifer does not give man freedom but slavery by blinding them with the light of initiation into darkness."




Many have been fooled ------ because their hearts are not evil. There are many who have followed the teachings in secret societies such as Freemasonry who have never really been told what is going on or who they are actually following. Anything done in secret or set above everyone else or the masses is not of God for He gives His love freely to all and withholds nothing from His children. It's never too late to get out. God and Christ are there for you but you have to ask them for help. I was fooled but I got out. Others have gotten out. You can also get out if you want to get out.

The God or TGA/The Great Architect of Freemasonry - is Lucifer.

Ask him yourself. Of course, if you aren't doing any work on another plane or inside yourself and have never met the guy with the rod of initiation on another level then you wouldn't know what I was talking about. Still, he is the one that is present whether you know it or not. Sorry but you should find out more since your life is at stake.

These initiations and such are based upon the same rites as the Egyptian mystery school teachings, as well as others. Based upon my own personal experiences and seeing the difference between TGA and GOD, they are different. One does not have YOUR best interests at heart and one does. You decide. Ask him who he is.

       To put the ghost controversy in perspective, it's important to understand the Bible's teaching on life after death.         
       Scripture says when people die, their spirit and soul immediately go to heaven or hell. We do not wander about
       the earth: (2 Corinthians 5:8, NLT)

So-called ghosts are demons posing as dead people. Satan and his followers are liars, intent on spreading confusion, fear,
and distrust of God. If they can convince mediums, like the woman at Endor, that they actually
communicate with the dead,
those demons can lure many away from the true God:

I read an article the other day about a psychic wanting to be called a “spiritual teacher.” Since when do those who speak to the dead, really demons in disguise, become our spiritual teachers? These entities that psychics speak to are really fallen angels and demons posing as ghosts of the dead. If the psychics could really see who they are speaking to they would run for their daddy. These demons and fallen angels speak much truth because they know the truth and they use it to try to get you to follow them instead of Christ and God.

Like many people out there, I was fooled because I just believed the image that they presented to me out of trust and goodness of heart. I never thought anyone would try to fool me. I never asked them who they were and it got me into a whole lot of trouble. Just ask them who they really are and they have to show you what they really look like. It isn't all nice and wonderful. These are evil, cold, heartless beings that are only trying to deceive us. We cannot see this because we are too trusting and we do not know the ways of darkness. We can learn and we can be strong and we can defeat them in connection with God and Christ.




NO laughing matter. I have personally seen what involvement with the occult, some new age practices and teachings, psychics, those who channel/mediums and deceit by fallen angels can do to a person. These forces hide very well until you try to toss them out of your life and until you let Christ help you. Christ is the only one, besides God, who can help you get rid of them and they are relentless if you have invited them into your life in any way. The key is letting Christ into your life. This stuff is nothing to be taken lightly. If you can learn to have a personal relationship with God and yourself without putting others in the middle it might serve you better.

            Especially in cases of occult involvement, confession must be specific. …The power of occult subjection will not be broken 
            unless the specific sin is singled out and confessed: “Father, I confess my sin of consulting a medium, playing with a Ouija 
            board, having my horoscope made, and having my fortune told.”….They [satanic powers] enforce their claims even upon 
            descendants who are completely unaware of the fact of hereditary complicity…no contact themselves.

            Merrill F. Unger, What Demons Can Do To Saints, Chicago, IL, Moody Press, 1991, pp. 193-194.



            When it all came full circle and down to the wire, I never wanted to be God.

                                I never wanted to be BIG.

                                            I was only looking for love, to belong and to share love with someone.

I was tricked along the way but not because I was evil. I was simply a child looking for love in this crazy world. I thought if I was big I would be safer but I was not. I almost lost my life and my soul. In the end, God was much, much bigger than all of it and I just need to share a hug and love with Him. It's that simple for me and doesn't get any bigger than that. I'm glad that I could turn my journey and my life into something bigger that will hopefully help others but the small me only wanted love and to belong somewhere.


Without any judgment or criticism or glory or anything else - just ask yourself honestly why you do the things you do --- and then listen for the answer. It might surprise you.


Actually, deceit is found in many places and not only in the New Age, as well as much truth. If this world is a blend of God, man and fallen angels and demons, then where is the truth?

Look within yourself and to God in the heart. Clear your heart of anger, rage, jealousy, sadness, grief, fear and everything but love and there you will find God and yourself. Love will clear out the energies of the lower emotions and allow you to connect with love. It is in the space of love that you will find the truth. The lower emotions veil or cloud the truth and they are filters by which the truth may pass through. Only in pure love will the truth be seen.

It seems that the key question is: who do you serve? Do you serve yourself or do you serve God and others? Love God and love everyone including yourself.


Here is some more information about the ego:

            Self-importance is man's greatest enemy. What weakens him is feeling offended by the deeds and 
            misdeeds of his fellow men. Self-importance requires that one spend most of one's life offended by
            something or someone.

                                                                                                     --Don Juan


Ego and self-importance quotes.



Denial is the psychological process by which human beings protect themselves from things which threaten them by blocking knowledge of those things from their awareness. It is a defense which distorts reality; it keeps us from feeling the pain and uncomfortable truth about things we do not want to face. If we cannot feel or see the consequences of our actions, then everything is fine and we can continue to live without making any changes.                                                                                                                               


            The truth that makes men free is for the most part the truth which men prefer not to hear. 

Herbert Agar


            It doesn't matter what one reveals or what one keeps to oneself. Everything we do, everything we are, rests on our 
            personal power. If we don't have enough personal power the most magnificent piece of wisdom can be revealed to us
            and it won't make a damn bit of difference.

Don Juan (Carlos Castaneda)

*******************     quotes about the ego




Taken directly from a psychic’s web site.


“Unlike some pseudo-psychics who tell people that their problems are caused by curses, evil entities, demons, or karmic retribution neither ==== nor ---- will blame the negative occurrences on your life on these things, and each of them feel it is important to advise their clients to not believe in such things. They do not exist.”


This psychic told a family that a missing loved one was dead. This loved one was found to be alive years later. Perhaps her family might not have given up looking for her if they thought she was still alive. This young woman could have been spared years of torture and sexual abuse.



While I personally do not feel that demonic entities and such are responsible for many of the negative things or illnesses or accidents that happen in our lives, I do feel that these evil, darkness and demonic entities are real. Based upon my own personal experience God and evil are both real and those who tell you differently are lying to you.

A psychic “working for God” personally led me into contact with demonic entities and the false god who is known as Ra or Lucifer. I was fooled by those beings of light and what I saw. I didn’t ask them who they were and took what I saw as true without going any deeper and it almost cost me my life and my soul. Be VERY careful. There are psychics who might know exactly what is out there but many are being fooled because they think that there is nothing evil out there that will hurt them.  That is why we are warned in our holy books. Is it worth your life or your soul for what truth or comfort you MIGHT get from them for that is how the entities will hook you and get you to invite them into your life. They are just waiting for an invitation to come into your life.


Would you not like to learn to talk to the LIVING god instead of the dead for advice and comfort. Leave the dead to go on with their journey. Their time here is done and they are not in the astral realms if they were close to God. The only thing one finds in the astral realms, which is where most psychics are working from, are the remnants or shells of criminals, drug and alcohol abusers, murders, rapists and other unsavory characters. In my experience, only God and Lucifer have access to the souls of the dead and most people do not go through these channels to get to the “dead.” Along the same lines, any entities contacted with a Ouija board are NOT nice people. These things in the astral plane are DEAD, very DEAD and dark so leave them to be that way without inviting them into your life. This plane is where nightmarish things happen so best to leave it alone. They will tell you much, much truth and you may find comfort from what is said but it is a trap. Leave it be. Try to learn to talk to God instead of the dead.


Based upon my own person experiences with the dark side, people and psychics who tell you that evil, darkness, demonic forces and such do not exist are not doing you any favors and they are lying to you. Evil is very, very real and it likes to trap those who are hurting and do not suspect that they are being fooled. Dark forces can and do imitate those who are alive and dead and I have had this personally happen to me. I have been fooled by the “dead” and those who would imitate those alive as well and when I told a living person what happened they kindly pointed out to me that I was being fooled. It was apparently not him that I was talking to when I thought that I was and this happened on more than one occasion. This was told to me by someone who can see very clearly in the other dimensions. I myself have seen into the astral plane and other dimensions at times and some of what is out there is VERY disturbing and not so nice and loving or angelic. I know that God and Christ are real because they are the ones that had to help me get out of that mess. So, do you still want to believe the “dead” whether they be dead persons, astral shells of those who have died or demonic entities. What does your own heart tell you about these things?


Talking to psychics and others who do not know exactly who they are working with, who cannot see into the other dimensions clearly, who are not working with God’s protection (even if they say that they are) and do not believe in evil, is just an open invitation for these things to come into your life. That is all that they need. Is this really what you want hanging around you.



If this is true as some teach - As I understand it, and I don’t understand much yet, there are different levels to the different planes of existence. The astral planes(s) are lowest to the earth with heaven “above” or in a higher vibration than the astral plane. On the lowest astral planes seem to be the most unsavory characters such as murders, rapists, sexual abusers, pedophiles, addicts, drunks, warmongers, demonic forces, fallen angels and such. I don’t know exactly what happens in the other levels of the astral plane. I do understand that one has to pass through the astral plane to get to heaven and that one of the energetic bodies is discarded at that time. This is the reason for the “shells” of dead people floating around in this dimension. One then passes to heaven if deserved I suppose or perhaps stays on a higher level of the astral plane. I don’t know all of it. I have seen some of it in a near death experience and from working in another energetic body or dimension. I do feel though that many people are being deceived by what is on the astral plane and that it is dangerous if one does not know what is going on.

To be safe, try to go directly to God or Christ.  This is not something to be taken lightly. You are very much in danger of losing your life, becoming open to influence from dark forces or possession even without their help. Many people have no idea what is happening out there and the astral is the plane of illusion. It is very much the plane of illusions, fantasy, desire, and relentless urges for those who die addicted and such and are thus earthbound. It is the home of those who are “evil” on earth as they do not pass to the higher realms or heaven. These things are who many psychics are really talking to and not the spirits of our loved ones. Satanic practices are in contact with the lower dimensions and the nasty things that reside there.


The psychic who led me to the false god was a "walk-in” who took over the body of another person. This was supposedly done to help others, and granted she does, but she is also leading people to the false god and into danger of losing their souls. She thinks that she works for God but she works for Ra who is also Lucifer. She calls God Ra but she doesn't make the connection and does not realize that the Creator is not Ra. Lucifer/Ra is only the god of this world.

Sadly, many are being deceived because their hearts are not evil.


        Our National Cathedral in Washington, D.C.

We are in trouble or headed for trouble when any church officially condones any kind of sin.


                        What kind of message does that send to our kids or to anyone for that matter?




Bothered? Don’t believe in a God that would create something so confusing in your life? I don’t think there are any mistakes in creation? This is of course, based upon my own sinning and rebellion against God in this, and other lifetimes if one believes in reincarnation. But, still, in this lifetime the sins of a same-sex relationship and the abortion hugely damaged my body, my mind, my heart and my soul and took me further away from God instead of closer. When I turned to Him in my desperation He and His son helped me to heal my wounds and my heart in ways that I could never imagine. These wounds which affect our sexuality and our sexual organs and body parts and our hearts can be hard to head but it can be done in a gentle way with God’s help. One for instance, is that I was afraid of men and because of what happened to me with the abortion, the betrayal of trust by a man and a woman, and the abortion so I went looking for my Father. He showed me the way home to my heart and to Christ and to life and what I needed to see for the healing of my soul.

I can only suggest that you go to them and face your challenges and your struggles with their help and in so doing, can find relief and a going home and a peace in your heart that you might never think possible. In my having a personal relationship with Christ, He helps me and has helped me to heal those wounds and my heart by not avoiding what was creating my difficulties. My heart beats with His at times and I can honestly tell you that it is the most precious feeling alive to me, unmatched by anything in this world and a feeling which makes all the things of this world pale and fade away in comparison. My breathing matches His at times and I feel His love inside of me healing and soothing and calming and bringing me to new life out of the destruction and pain in this world. In so connecting with Jesus in my heart and my body, I feel His peace and His joy and the love that comes from sharing and learning to become as one with life and Home and the love that beats our very hearts. I learn to rely on Him to be my strength, realizing that I no longer have to try to do all of it alone and that I have help as close as my own heart. I am never alone anymore. I find the child inside of me healing in the Fatherly love present and the woman inside of me healing in the presence of the King who now sits on the throne in my heart. This feels right. This feels peace. This brings joy and stability and relief.

Realize perhaps that like me, God is calling you to a special relationship with Him and with His son. Perhaps God is calling you to turn to Him to come home. Perhaps He is calling you to obedience to Him and to put Him first instead of ourselves and our pleasures. Perhaps He wants a personal relationship with you and your heart. Perhaps He wants to give you the love of a Father and of a son or brother or what you need in your heart. Perhaps He wants to give you all the best in life and what your heart most dearly seeks and desires, past the pleasures of this world but right to the heart and love and what truly matters the most. That is what I found anyways. True peace and true love and a daily renewal and forgiving and grace and love that never ends and always the grace and the love and support to face each day. I find new strength in His love, new healing in my body, in my mind and in my heart and soul that is readily available to anyone who turns their life to God and to Christ. They are a soul-soothing balm of pure love that never stops loving me no matter what I have done and gives me new life every day as well as new meaning, new love and new understanding every day. But peace and love like nothing else I have ever had in my life is found and in that peace and love my heart and my soul rest and find life.




 These people are mostly law enforcement officers on a bike ride to the Lincoln Memorial in Washington DC to honor fellow officers who lost their lives honoring the call to duty.  May they rest in peace and may God and Christ have mercy on all of our souls.

These fateful days have hit us all hard and we feel it. We want something more than this suffering and worry and visible distress we have been going through. God the Lord is present in everything that happens, and we want to find the answer to all  his that he wants  from us. We want to arrive at that composure and harmony of heart that God surely wants to accomplish in us and that we owe to him. Without it, he will not avert the distress of this world from us. ... This intrinsic lack of peace within the world is because man's dispositions are no longer in conformity with God's freedom or the questions he daily poses to us. ...

                                                                                                            Magnificat, July 2015, pg. 362-363


        The beauty of suffering is that it can and does bring us closer to God and to our own hearts and to those of others. There is love in suffering. There is joy in suffering. Allow it to help mend and expand your heart. Allow it to help you be closer to God.


O God of light and glory, you are the beauty we seek, the power to whom we entrust ourselves, the love for whom we hunger and thirst. Make yourself known to all people through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

                                                                                                                                            Magnificat, August 2015, pg. 360




War Room - Official Trailer

Tony and Elizabeth Jordan have it all—great jobs, a beautiful daughter, and their dream house. But appearances can be deceiving. Tony and Elizabeth Jordan’s world is actually crumbling under the strain of a failing marriage. While Tony basks in his professional success and flirts with temptation, Elizabeth resigns herself to increasing bitterness. But their lives take an unexpected turn when Elizabeth meets her newest client, Miss Clara, and is challenged to establish a “war room” and a battle plan of prayer for her family. As Elizabeth tries to fight for her family, Tony’s hidden struggles come to light. Tony must decide if he will make amends to his family and prove Miss Clara’s wisdom that victories don’t come by accident

also at this link - War Room - The Heart of the Movie

Alex and Stephen Kendrick discuss the next film by the Kendrick Brothers (Facing the Giants, Fireproof, Courageous).            



I have found in my own life that if I put in lighter and more Godly energies then it is easier to stay in a place where I am connected with God and with Christ. Our holy medals, crosses and crucifixes help protect us as well. Prayer is a very powerful protector. In the Catholic tradition, the Hail Mary is a powerful strengthener of the lower part of the body and the Our Father is a powerful strengthener of the upper body. As more and more of the joy of Christ fills my heart and body, my spirit feels more free and more connected to God. We literally do put on a new man or Christ as we connect to God. He holds us like a prayer and protects us from harm with His love, mercy and grace.


Based upon what I have seen, there are only two beings in charge of the dead - God and Lucifer/Satan.
Listen to the holy books and the Bible and stay away from mediums, psychics or any kind of trying to communicate with the dead, for your own safety.


Jeremy Camp - Same Power (Lyric Video)


The church is still a child and has a lot of growing up to do. Still, she is destined one day to be a pure and beautiful bride of Christ.



Mary Magdalene herself had demons driven out and was cleansed and healed by Yeshua.


and let us not forget the men in this world. God also raised up Moses and King David, who both had sinned. God cleanses us and washes us clean and lets us start over anew with His endless mercy, love, grace and kindness.



If experiencing demonic attack here are some suggestions:

        Talk to a pastor or priest.

        Know that God and Christ are there for you and will protect you.


        Read the Bible

        Bible Study

        Go to church regularly.

           Look at and change those things in your life that might be causing or contributing to these things - get rid of any games, music, videos, movies, fear, satanic activities, dragons, spells, witchcraft or anything else not of God out of your life and out of your home. Change what you eat, what you watch, what your read, what you listen to and where you live if necessary to help you on your way. Try to stop drinking, stop doing drugs, stop abusing, cussing or cursing and watch your language and any other temptation or sin that might allow dark or evil influence in your life.



If you need an answer to something – flip open the Bible to any page.

Chances are you will find your answer there.


    ...     What I seek is purity in my walk with God - far away from the sins of my youth and the turmoil and confusion of this world. 


So much of the false teachings are based upon what is real and true of God and that is why things are sometimes so confusing. Love is one of the keys. Serving others and not serving the self is another key.




Okay ....

So, for me, a vision of unclean animals coming down in the midst of a conversation with God, was about me obeying God and doing what He asks of me, no matter how strongly I might feel against doing whatever it was he was asking me to do.

It was all about me obeying God in all ways, including eating something I might not want to eat.


Our Heavenly Father says
"They are desecrating my holy images." 

   So, I decided not to say anything except what I was given. Please do your own research on the subject of sacred and holy symbols, the use of Satanic symbols and how we are possibly being confused by the combination of pagan and holy symbols, clockwise and counterclockwise and such. There are links further up this page for those adventures.

This necklace is a combination of the heart shape and the peace sign. Both of these symbols are widely discussed on the internet. Links are above.

There is a lot of confusion these days and there is a lot of information out there. It seems to be a blending of God and man and pagan and holy. I think we can go up and into a more pure relationship with God from here, but out of a personal relationship with God for each person. I think this has many advantages for the person and for society and leaves much less room for error. Of course this relationship takes time and effort and commitment but it could be the best thing a person ever does. It was for me and God never fails to guide me every step of the way. I still get confused at times but I always try to hear His voice a little clearer, a little louder and to ever press closer to Him and to His heart and His love for us, which then allows me to be more clear and less confused about all of life. One step at a time. One step closer.

Anyone else see a snake's head in this combination of the two images?

God will open your eyes to see and guide the way.


For anyone who wants to know who "they" are - "they" refers to those that follow their own wills over God, those that are caught in the sin nature - knowingly or unknowingly - or those who knowingly pursue selfish means and choose greed and power and other not of God ways instead of love and compassion and sharing, etc. There are those who consciously invoke evil and invite it into this world and those who choose the dark side thus allowing that influence to come into the world. That is what I mean by "they."



The altar is the very threshold of Heaven. … [from the video]

The Theological Significance of the Veil


Given the fact that here before the altar a Catholic woman is a living icon of the Church, and a veil on a Catholic woman - be she six or be she sixty - is a public and visible reminder of the perfect submission of the Church to the loving rule of Christ... If this time should ever come, it would be a visible sign, to all who have the spiritual eyes to see, that the Church, in her human element, is not living in submission to the loving rule of Christ. It'd be a visible sign that the Church, in her human element, was in fact in a great rebellion against her Spouse. ….

A "sign of unveiling" - what's that supposed to mean? Well, the woman is the icon of the Church, the Bride of Christ. So if massive numbers of Catholic women began to appear before the Heavenly Spouse without their veils, it would be certainly a visual foreshadowing of the unveiling. And that's probably a whole lot easier to understand if we use the word - the term derived from the Greek.

The greek derivative for the unveiling of a bride is... the apocalypse.



Hi everyone - just making some revisions on a few pages in reconsidering some events so please take note. Thanks.


I learned a very hard way that Jesus/Yeshua is the way for my life and to follow him. As long as I listen to God I feel that I am doing okay. I think that our Father takes into consideration all of the different peoples, faiths and beliefs in this world but this is what happened to me. If I can offer any advice it would be to say to be obedient to God, everything I needed was/is in the Bible and that I realize that no matter where I was in my life, God never left me and was always present in my life helping me, turning to good or for good all that I had done.

Please pay attention here - if you are trying to have your own christ self (small c because you are trying to do it yourself) instead of going to God or Jesus/Yeshua/Christ as the savior and messiah, then you might very well be very much in danger. This is the tricky part and where I got in trouble in some of the teachings, in trying to do it all by myself instead of being obedient to God. For me, Jesus Christ/Yeshua is the high priest and the way, the truth and the life.

This is being revised at the moment 2/2016 because of new revelations and looking for some clarity in how to present some of what I learned in the ascended master teachings. There is a Master Jesus in the ascended master teachings and Jesus and God were always present  so please know that but I got into trouble trying to do it myself so I think God was and is always present and helps us but just be aware of where some confusion might be. Jesus was present always but in my fear and trying to get back to God all by myself by using the teachings I got into trouble. It was Jesus/Yeshua and Father that got me out of that mess. Without their help I would be dead now. There seems to be so much truth in the teachings but now in looking back, I realize even more than it is obedience to God and letting Him be in charge that is so very important. It is surrendering to His will and not trying to do it myself. I don't want to bash anyone else's beliefs and I think that God takes care of us wherever we are at and shows us the way in so many ways in this world. We are not all the same and He knows that and I found that if I put Him first and listened to Him that He showed me all that I needed to know. So, if you are confused, may I suggest trying to put Him first and learn to listen closely to Him. Out of that personal relationship with God is where I found my confusion leaving because I find no confusion in God. It is my human filter that creates confusion but God and His love are where things are clear.

A little more on this photo for those that want to go deeper.

Okay, so beyond the very beautiful, loving ray from God in response to our prayers, look around the building and see what you see. Notice anything in the surrounding area. I'll put a few of my observations below a bit - this is a kick it up a notch photo. Look at other buildings, plants, clouds or sky ... what about the palm tree on the right side of the building? What impression do you get?

Ephesians 5:8-14New International Version (NIV)

For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light (for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) 10 and find out what pleases the Lord. 11 Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them. 12 It is shameful even to mention what the disobedient do in secret. 13 But everything exposed by the light becomes visible—and everything that is illuminated becomes a light. 14 This is why it is said:

                                         “Wake up, sleeper,
                                                             rise from the dead,
                                                                            and Christ will shine on you.”


 Re Photo above at the clinic where abortions are done.

             Do you see the owl's face in the palm tree to the left of the building?

             Owls are about seeing in the dark but are also said to be harbingers or warnings of death at times. They are also used as a symbol by the dark side. There are positive and negative aspects all about this world and especially in symbols but this is one thing that I see.

     Do you see the spirit of the witch in the palm tree below the owl?

       In walking around the building and standing by the palm tree there is a very nasty spirit of death in the form of a mutilated baby in the tree as well. These are some of the things that we let loose in the world with selfish and evil practices, unseen by most but no less real or lacking in influence. 

        In walking around the building, as directed by God, I can also see how the walls of Jericho fell. I was walking according to God's will and direction and I felt His power and might and love. Very powerful. Maybe if enough of us walk around this topic or places where abortions are done in prayer and love and at God's direction we can change the way people feel about this practice.

              What do you think?

           God helps us rid the world of this kind of darkness as we turn to Him, obey Him and let love into our hearts and into the world.





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